inside this heaven of grace

A RAZOR THAT LEAVES YOUR SOUL TO BLEED.

2008-05-24T21:33:00.003+08:00

sighs. i want to be a guy next life. seriously. facial is so not fun please. it hurts okay. okaay, now black heads are out, but all the dots on my face are like swollen and red. wait, not dots, holes and pimples! hahaha. oh whatever.

but shopping was greaaat todaaayyy laaa. PHOON WAS BEING SO SO NICE. she came to meet me liek earlier when i told her my dance ended. =D hahah. and walked around with me for 2 whole hours. HAHAHA. and gave valuable comments! yaaaayyy. ONG came and we shopped around for shoes. and i think they are really effective in preventing me from splurging! hahha. ut we're like super tired and our feets are aching like maaad. so we were sitting around and talking. HAHAH. owells, another nice saturday with the girls.

yeaaaap, and we had our formation for miao zu todaay. efficient! haaha. me and janice came to school really early laaa! we thought th studio wasnt open! but it was. gosh, we almost hyperventilate. so our plan to pack the costumes failed! ahaha.

right, im going to the airport now. DONT MISS MEEEEE! =D

HAHAHAA. im just going there to welcome the arrival of my SANTA CLAUS. ((:

and ive bruises everywhere. UGGGGLLLLYYY =( (oh gosh, grace, stop being such a vain pot)

okay, if you think this post is a lil bimbotic, im sorry, too baadd. (:

2008-05-23T23:29:00.002+08:00

IM STRAIGHT, PEOPLE ((:

right, case closed.

this weekend is gona be greaaaaatt. cause there will be no work! HAHHAA. retail therapy tomorrow! i cant wait. i desperately needs to revamp my wardrobe, although ive like so lil chance of wearing the new clothes. HAHHA. im just a amazing splurgeR. which means in future, ive to earn ALOT more than others to keep up with my lifestyle. motivation huh. hahhaa.

stayed till 10 in school todaaay for bridge. yaaaaay. it feels good to hardcore! hahah. but must really work on partnerships!

had pw meeting after school! i think we're more or less clear about our direction and stuffs. and i must say our work plan totally RAWKS! (: and library shall be my second home on FRIDAYS. AAAHHHH. then we wenta played tennis after that. i think ive big problem! i can just let the ball fly past me and not do anything. okaaay, when i acutally did sth, i'll still miss! HAHAHHA. so they were all laughing like maaaad. but i had fun! seriously. class is loves <3

super sleepy now. im like dozing off. tmr have to go to school earlyyyy. (: dancee!

it was never meant to be so personal

2008-05-21T21:49:00.004+08:00

GRACE IS A REALLY REALLY HAPPY GIRL TODAAAAYYY.

i havent felt so so happy for a long time. although i didnt get to watch tennis when i had the chance to, and i missed bridge trng, the day was still greaaaattt. it was a really sudden decision to go back nanhua. i was just planning to slack at phoon's house and go for dinner tgt. then after reaching ghim moh, in 10mins' time we are already off to nanhua in a cab! hahaha. i was being the typical auntie and rushing to get the cab before 5oclk peak hour. HAHHA. and PHOON FRACTURED HER TOE IN THE CAB. HAHAHAH. im so sure. okaaay, so actually we're alr super excited to go to dance and see laoshi. haahha. but when we got off the cab, we saw hitler ho, potat and their bunch of friends outside the GO slacking! HAHHA. we'll like jumping around laa. okaaay, say me. cause all of them see each other everydaaay! yeaaaappp. we'll like making a big din inside the office and all. and we decided to go to dance tgt. chunkiat was there! and they were having ndp training! i still miss nhds. the sweat, the pumps, the plaits, and the familiar actions. really really brought back lots of memories. and all thanks to FATE, we met zhongyi too! okaaay, apparently he took a whole week of leave and came back dance after like half a year. HAHHA. anyway had a long talk and discussed issues with the exco. hahah. left at 6plus to go for dinner. the long walk to central was like old times, talking and laughing at the top of our voice. and chun kiat showed me a video they took like long time ago. its the exact same path that we took okaaay. coolios. settled on sumo house and we were talking about jc life and all. i feel so at ease and comfortable with this bunch of people, really. we can just hit it off, even though we havent seen each other for months. yeaaap, and we finally settled on our dance gathering! AAAHHHH. IM SO SO LOOKING FOWARD PLEASE. and so does everyone! our traditional potluck and indian poker! hahah. and we were camwhoring and doing poster for our gathering. HHAHHA. stayover will be like really really fun. our mia zuxi constantly appeared and disappeared todaaay and say our camwhoring is childish, in a way! PFFFT. ahhaha. then we stood outside in a circle, sending pics. ahaha. super funny. ohyah, i forgot to mention, potat and hitler ho are having soccer trials tmr and potat kept reminding hitler ho not to eat too much. HAHAHA. and it so feels like we're all going back nanhua tmr. i always have that kinda feeling. like it was just yesterday that we parted ways. and going back to dance always reminds me that i dont belong there anymore, we cant join in the fun like we used to. but nevertheless, i am still really glad to be able to meet up with these wonderful batch mates, dancers, great friends once in a while. it really makes me a happier person. like for the last 4 years, and for the years to come, i will be blessed with such nice people who bring so much joy into my life. everything around us may change, even people change, but i believe our friendship will stay strong. just want to let you people know, nhds and dancers really have a special place in my heart, and that the bond i shared with you people is so unique and precious that no other group of people can be compared to it. because we went through so much tgt, and through all, we matured and became the best of friends. 7th, 8th june will be a blast (: i cant wait! =D

some pictures :

CHEEYEW'S SIGNATURE POSE. IVE NO IDEA WHY WE FOLLOWED HIM LAAAA. and we are made to point to the other side -.-

oh, and cheeyew said ive become skinnier. HAHA. WHATEVER.

MAN U FTW LATERRRRR (: potat is gona tell me th results. and good luck for trials guys! HAHAH.

oh, and gp sarks, as usual. gosh.

and my mum never fails to spoil my mood. RAWR.

and again i koped this from zhanni's blog :

HAHAHAHHA. AMUSING. if you know what i mean.

okaaay im gng to sleeeep now. NIGHTS (:

AND IF YOU KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH, I DONT LIKE GUYS. WHATEVER. I THINK I SHOULD JUST STOP TALKING TO GUYS. (what the hell is wrong with you. this is getting really irritating )

AMUSING.

2008-05-19T17:19:00.004+08:00

minus loves relationships, and loud and sensitive. HAHHAH. THE REST IS ABSOLUTELY TRUE. I LOVE THIS HOROSCOPE INTERPRETATION. HAHHA. IM EGOISTIC TO THE MAX.

i find everything AMUSING now, ive no ideaaa why. burst out laughing in front of the comp is so so retarded! HAHHA. but i like (:

today has been rather productive, as compared to the last two days. which explains why im here! to destress. HAHHA. right. i just cant resist temptation you see. and yeap, ive to get the interview qns done too! hahah. excuses excuses. anyway, im gona start ano-ing! ive been eating far too much junkies. HHAHAH. KIDDING.

actually ive quite alot to blog. but suddenly lost the mood. later perhaps! hhahah.

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PHOON called last night. =D we didnt talk long. hahha. but still, i was really touched. (: knowing that she does care and patiently listens to me as i blabber about my daily life. it seems that i am always the one doing the talking. hahha. phoon is one of those few who really listens and i fel comfortable talking to. really glad that she quitted her camp stuffs. can see that its really wearing her out big time. haha. and which means she'll have more time for us! and shes a lousy ponner! hahah. like we dont usually pon cca right! understandable! (: yeaap. that phone call really meant alot, kinda dispel my troubles away for that few minutes. loves. i cant wait for tis sat!we've alot of catching up to do!

okaaay, i can feel the missing-nanhua-syndrome coming again!

MELHOE WAS AT J8 last fridaaay. and i didnt get to meet her. blaaah. i really really felt the strong urge to rush out of bridge to look for her. and hwach people like limziqin is so so lucky, they get to go match support laaaa! okaaay. and its liek always rj against hc and theres so many chances that i'll get to meet melhoe and ziqin there! aaahhh. but im always that busy! aaahhh. okay, JUNE HOLS. im so gona start organising. hahahh.

did i mention that my pw group mates are really cuteee? hahha. come ask me personally if you want to know.

witnessed an assualt ytdy. scare the hell out of me. i was close to tears when my dumb dumb dad wanted to go help. i hate such dramatic events. ><

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--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
i'll just talk to myself.
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
ahahh
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
haha
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
still talking to urself
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:

--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
ohyes. poor soul!
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
EH! BUT YOU'RE NOT ME.
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:

raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
yes!@
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
im th part of u tht criticizes u!
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
ahha
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
u lousy pok!
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
woohoo
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
aaahhh. then the devil of my soul.
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
tsktsk.
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
haha
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
im th angel of truth!
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
haha
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
FAINTS.
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
hahahah
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
zzzz
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:

raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
hope u faint forever!
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:

--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
okaaay YOU'RE EVIL!
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
then i'll come back and haunt you!
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
haha
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
yay!
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
thn i can have a few laughs
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
haha!
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
laugh what?
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
whn i see ur face
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
haha
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
please i will scare you with like no face at all!
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
haha
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
tht'll be ur prettiest moment
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
lol
raindrops are falling on my head.... says:
jkjk!
--`_ gräcεe ]] CUTE TO THE MAX! says:
OMG! I HATE YOU. TO THE MAX.

okaaay -.- almost hyperventilated. HAHHAAH (:

runaway train never going back wrong way on a oneway track

2008-05-18T10:09:00.002+08:00

after that "motivational" studying post, i havent been studying till now. AHHHAA. just a quick post! (:

yesterday was an amazing daaaay. cause i did 4 things that i really need to do for a long long time.

1) i cleared my inbox and sent messages. mind you, theres more than 3000 msgs, combining both. that kinda explains the need, but on the other hand, the reluctance. aaahhh.

2) i slept for 11 hours straight. okaay, i woke up at 10 to reply andy noi's msg and went back to sleep. without any dreams. just pure sleep. HAHHAHA. total rawking. i think that kinda repays all my sleep debts already! im ready to start waking up at 2 again! ahhaha.

3) it must have been half a year since i had a taste of wine, cause that sip yesterday was heavenly. hahha. but i still love the cupuccino one the last time. hahha. im definitely not that kinda alcohol person. but i have a soft spot for wine, all sorts. thats why i didnt really bother to go find out what kinda wine when i drank it. ahaha. 2 glasses, zero effects on me. is that normal! HAHAH.

4) hahah. i went from chinatown to commonwealth and took 105 home. mind you, i have a direct train home from chinatown. ahhaha. i think im just missing bus rides too much. and come to think of it, i was just that near nanhua and i didnt even go bother to go back to collect my cert. ahaha. laazzy hormones are raging. HAHAH.

and i splurged yesterday! >< i swear im doing all kinds of weird stuffs these days. HAHAHA. ((:

i'll go look for FOOOOODDDD NOW. hahaha. food makes me really happy these days. those who say im ANO can just go slam your head against the wall now. HAHAHHA. and on a random note again, i can finally see some beautiful curves in my hair! =D

END-

TAINTED WITH LIES AND PAIN

2008-05-15T19:47:00.002+08:00

had damn lot of fun with the people in my class todaaaayyy! =D

the day started with chem test. which kinda sarked big time for me. and which i had retarded answers and i was still laughing to myself during the test cause of my new-found artistic talent. but i passed. and apparently almost everyone did.

i was in a daze during gp. tsk. chem test never fails to have a traumatising effect on me. and i was preoccupied with stuffs to think. had that craaaazy pe lesson. okaaay, we took 10mins to reach the field, 10mins to change, and the funniest thing, the teacher took 5mins to take attendance. aaaahhh. and i bet the girls must have thought im a psychopath who keeps millipede as pet. HAHAH. maybe i am! but we are like really strolling, okay no, crawling to pe. HAHHA. gosh, and for tag rug, we came up with a whole lot of nonsense like team cheer, war cry, playing rugby and all. and oh man, it got all of us laughing so hard. priya was really funny! she was doing her warcry alone at the start, when we agreed to do it tgt. but its not our fault, cause all of us just fell to the ground and laughed. HAHAHA. oh man, but despite everything, we still got owned, badly. hhahaa. but who cares? we'd tonnes of fun! and we got really high and was kicking th ball everywhere and running towards the touch line and experience the taste of reaching of the touch line for the first time that day. pw was craaazy too. all of us stressed up emo elmos. 5 girls hiding in th toilet, being so suicidal. and i went back, mingzhe was taking out his penknife. and he suggested playing dare, cutting wrist. tsktsk. i granted his wish and drew a really artistic cut of his wrist with a mixture of purple, red and yellow markers. again, im amazed by my artisitc skills. (: during chem, me and zhanni found an emo corner in the school, where no one can find us. hahah. its really fun. and i was laughing at how the 5 girls walked a whole long way to fill their bottles, strolling as usual i mean. okaaayy, this kinda ends my day in school. HAHHA. i love class! <3

reality check. its time for me to buck up. it kinda sarks to know that youve the potential and youve done it before, and everything now just fails to meet expectations. theres no reason for me not to work harder. time management, concentration, determination, will and motivation are all lacking, and ive to find them back quickly. now studies shall be my second priority and im determined to make the best out of that one month, and not do too badly for cts. this is a promise to myself. (:

hair cut was totally pointless anyway. pfft.

CO CONCERT TMR. BLUTALITY TMR. I MISS MR 11! <333s

messed-up emotions these days. and its draining away all my energy, breaking my soul, numbing my heart. really complicating. too much things going on, too much for me to absorb, too much for me to even stop and organise my own thoughts. so now everything is like jumbled up, and crashing down on me.

GLOOMY

2008-05-13T17:26:00.003+08:00

i love everyone. i really do. my classmates who help to search high and low, and constantly asking me if i am alright. chunyue, justin who were really worried. soorrryyy. and of course SHIFU! who found my pens. (:

but still, the strange feeling in me just remains. even when my pens are found. cause i just hated myself so much when i lose my stuffs. cause i cant seem to find out why i kept losing my stuffs. and they are all so important to me. i dont know whats next. when is this horrible cycle gona end? im so sick and tired of it. whats wrong with me? the feeling of not being able to do things right pissed me off big time. helplessness. cause ive no idea how to help myself. okay, this might sound alil exaggerated. but when it comes to losing wallet twice, bottle, and a whole bloody box of new colour pens within a month, it meant a whole lot to me.

but im still thankful that shifu found my pens. i actually cried horribly after chun yue's call. i dont know why the tears just came rushing out. im gona cherish them more!

shit. SCREW MEEEEEE. I SHALL JUST HIRE SOMEONE TO KILL ME RIGHT NOW. OR LOCK ME INSIDE THE HOUSE AND NOT LET ME OUT EVER AGAIN. CAUSE THEN, I WONT DROP/LOSE MY STUFFS. BRILLIANT IDEA.

and the sky is crying for me now. must have thought i am one hopeless bitch, who doesnt deserve any comfort or any luck. WHY WONT THE LIGHTNING STRIKE ME NOW! ><

okaaay. this post is too negative. too suicidal. aaahhh, but who cares?

im so gona sleep now. sleeep the feeling away. sleep this day away. i only wana wake up tomorrow morning, cause today just izen my day. on a random note, I MISSS BRIDGE.

keeping you inside is killing me

2008-05-11T08:00:00.002+08:00

WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS IS A REALLY REALLY NICE MOVIE. AND WITH ONG, ITS LIKE PERFECT COMPANY LAAAAA. like laughing non-stop! HAHA. anyway, we kinda reached an understanding that everytime when its just th two of us, we will be really focussed on getting our stuffs first, then after that, we will just pig out somewhere, and spend the rest of the time talking. and yeaapp. pigging means eating, and mind you, is eating ALOT. HAHAH. eh, but I LOVE IT LAAAA. and i have the sudden urge to go to ghim moh! i miss the greaaat food there! and i wana da bao up to phoon's house like how we always did. but nvm, at least im meeting them every sats now! kind of a motivation for me to survive every week! =D

this week has been one craaaazy week. okay like which one izen. HAHHA. but its like theres a whole damn lot of work for me to catch up and i cant understand most of the lectures now. owells. and today is CHEMISTRY DAY. cause theres like a thousand of chem work to do. which reminds me, i should send out a reminder to the class to do work. talk about efficient (MEEEEEE :D) heeee. how about im like exceeding my msg when its like one third of the mth gonne only. okay, thats OWNAGE. hahah. i like talking about work here. because it feels like im doing work-related stuffs, and i dont feel THAT guilty. HAHHAHA. what crap. anywayyy, i just remembered, ive to ask my dearest pw group mates to send their stuffs to me so i can compile tonight! then we'll have a meeting tmr. ((: yaaay. i love my pw group. and of course, the TOPIC. HAHHA. oh, and i think constellations in ubin are damn damn nice. randomness, but i think its a great pity you cant see all these in singapore. aaahhh. but people here are so preoccupied with their work that no one will actually look up the night sky. so i would rather th stars go to some place where people appreciate them more. HAHAH. sheesh. crapping level super high now!!

did i mention sister is really nice? cause he reserved two nj dance concert tics for me! HAHAH. 30th may. im looking forward laaaaa. ((:

and i just wenta wengmaan's blog. SHITOOOUUUUU (: i totally miss nhds like maaaad. how? =(

GRACE IS NICCEEEEE. I BOUGHT POPIAH FOR MY MUM. HEEE. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAAAAAYYY =D

t3 was a total funneesss today. photo spammage. my brother almost died when he saw so many pictures of me inside! ahahah. my mum is my partner in crime. HAHHAH. but its damn nice there. so like, pre-travel pictures, family sending off, ahem, actually you can only see the sister in all the pics. yaaaaay. i cant wait for him to come back. my jacket with hoodie, bags and shoes. HAHAHAH. it will be like christmas time agaaaaiin! HAAH.

alrights. till here! i wish for everyone to be as happy as meeeeee. HAHHA. esp chun and shuh! EMMMOOOOOO ELMOOOOSSS. loves.

HMMMM.

2008-05-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

today is a weird day. 2 person came to me, and said the exact opposite words. "today is a happy day! (really really HUGE GRIN)" ,"today is a baaaddd day.. (AAAHHHHH...)"

okay, i wonder, how was mine?

2008-05-07T21:25:00.003+08:00

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much I know along the way
Then I heard you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I
Been so afraid
And just when I
Have thought I've lost my way
You give me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

When I'm weary
Well I know you'll be there
And I can feel you
When you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand x 2

* leona lewis - footprints in the sand

SCREAM, AT THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS

2008-05-06T20:29:00.003+08:00

im so so glad i went for class camp. it was really an amazing and enriching experience for me. (: may5th and 6th are definitely memorable dates for our class.

seventeen people turned up and we sat on an anytime-can-break-down bus to changi. stanley was being noisy AS USUAL in the bus. and we talked alot. everyone was in a great mood, except me. i was really tired and home-sick and all. hahaha. had subway at changi village with the girls. and set off to ubin in the lorry-like pump boat. hahhah. the engine makes me sleepy! walked a long way to the campsite. the guys were reliving their childhood, singing pokemon songs and entertaining us. mrs grace lee was being really hilarious also. and although the dist was long, we didnt feel tired at all! (: upon reaching there, we set up our shelters and the guys were complaining that they pitched ours and ours seemed to be the better one. HAHHA. in the end we girls didnt even sleep inside! HAHAHAH. the sky was overcast and we thought we couldnt go out to the sea. ahhah. but we did! actually rafting was quite fun. our class is just made up of pure slackers. so people like victor in front are poor souls. stanley, mingzhe, yongkong and hongrui were busy splashing water at us. and the instructor asked us to jump off the banana boat to swim. totally regretted! hhahha. cause after jumping in, we were like, oh shit, how do we climb up! so theres alot of fuss, lots of pple got cut! =( funniest is mingzhe, suicidal eh! then we visited the kelong and sat down and crapped as a class. feels really nice (: went back after awhile and found a jellyfish on the shore! so the brave ones were like poking and stuffs. yeaaappp, and it was after this that we felt the full power of MOSQUITOES AND ANTS. ITS EVERYWHERE. we bathed and cooked. ahhah. mingzhe CLAIMED that he worked in the kitchen of some hotel before and went ahead to cut carrots. ended up wasting alot, cause no ones liek carrot. HHAHA. our cooking was quite organised i must say. everyone was full and happpy. we had hard-boiled eggs! MY FAVOURITE (: yeeeaaaapp. then after guys' soccer and girls' pepsi cola, we had night walk. it was a choice, but we all agreed to go. and its a good thing! =D im glad we did. cause for me, i learnt alot. really. besides getting all freaked out, and learning constellations, and realising my night-blindness. ahahha. the road was dark and really winding. we had to walk back alone. but when you know that theres people in front and behind you, your heart and mind will naturally settle down peacefully. but i was still rly excited to meet bd, angela and jingheng on th way! HHAHA. so we kinda cheated, they are SLLLOOOWWW. HAHAH. had debrief and it was one great one. ((: slept under the stars on the road. super nice. but i kept thinking theres ants crawling all over me! the whole night i kept waking up, which was rly rly irritating! AAAHHHH. zhanni is really ACTIVE before sleeping. AHEM. ahhah. bathed early in the morn, craaazy us. found out that our bread is infested by ants. so we only had 2 loaves. killed ants with fire and water to take our revenge. girls cleaned the toilet, which was really disgusting. and clear the bins, which was also disgusting. me and gladys kept sterilising ourselves. they were all avoiding my sexy legs cause the soup from the trash bag dripped onto my legs. aaaahhhh. so truamatising laaa. walked back to jetty, rather quiet, cause all of us weere tired. it was drizzling when we reached school, me and gladys were hurraying. ahhaha cause we're dreading ropes course. but we still did anw, after lunch. it was scaaarrry! screams, laughters, cheering! (: had a fun fun time. ahhah. but we're all drained after that. had debrief, and the instructor played a reallly lame game with us. to teach us to look for positive things, other than just focusing on the problem. kinda coool!

yeaaap. it was kinda saaddd that even the instructors can see that the class izen bonding well. i really hoped that everything we've learnt and got to know will be put to great use. and everyone be true to their words. the class camp will be a great start. it might be alil late, but if we all have the heart and the correct attitude, the lost times can be recovered. classes and lessons are boring enough, so having a great environment that you'll feel at ease and great classmates will be amazing! two years izen long, and definitely not short either. we'll have to help each other through, get out of the darkness, discover the sense of belonging and work hard play hard tgt! (:
GO 6M! i really hope things will go on well from here <3s

a day when everyone you mee seem like strangers, and they talked to you in alien languages. you're lost in the world of your own. the world around is spinning, everyone is moving, but you stay rooted to the ground, not knowing what to do anymore.

IT'LL GET BETTER IN TIME

2008-05-04T21:31:00.002+08:00

dance night 2008 was a really amazing experience (: no doubt, i had to admit that the pracs were tough and all, but dancing and enjoying with everyone really felt good. now that its over, sth is like missing from my life. and the j2s will be leaving soon, im so gona miss them. gosh. =(
so much fun, laughter and tears. (:

and i love all those who came down to support too (: ucc is like really far and inaccessible, but you people still came. MUCH MUCH LOVES <3s

now the crazy period for dance is over, the crazy period for tests is here. GOSH. so screwed! >< aaahhhh. im like dreading them. and and i hope its gona be soon we find time to visit island creamery okaay, you know im referring to you people (; ask more people! HAHAH

and my dearest chunyue is the VICE-CHAIR OF BRIDGE CLUB. sooorrryyy for not bring there to support but i know you'll make it for sure! alvina is the chair and evelyn is the secretary! YAAAAYYY. CONGRATS PEOPLE! [: reaally really happy for you people!

oh, and i lost my wallet AGAIN. i think im really horrible. i still cant get over th fact that i can just be so so dumb and blur. pffft.

class camp tmr! hope it will be fun (:

i had milo mcflurrrryyyy ytdy again! for supper. fattening. owells. CHIPMUNK THEODORE IS CUTE ANYWAAAYYYY.

and koko krunch is my latest addiction. how about i brought a whole big box for class camp? HHHAHA. i think i cant control my addiction well. i'll just spam myself and gorge myself. HAHHA. WHO CARES. as long as im happppy. (x

BROKEN.

2008-04-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

i bit my lips, trying hard not to show. the smile came naturally to save me. then it's all okay again.

ALL DA BEST FOR THE BRIDGERS PLAYING CJ TMR (:

and DANCERS, take care and jiayou! =D

much much loves.

this will be the last time, i really hope. i must never break the promise i had for myself. no matter how much it takes for me, i will stay strong and walk on alone.

BUGS PULLING ON MY HEARTSTRINGS.

2008-04-28T16:20:00.004+08:00

SINFUL INDULGENCE. but it sent me straight to heaven. i cant believe i actually smiled when i had my first taste of milo mcflurry for the day. SWEETNESS. AHAHHA. totally saved my day. but come to think of it, i actually SMILED TO MYSELF, must have looked real retarded. HEEEE.

FOUND MY WALLET! =D totally rawking yeah. but my atm, ezlink are all cancelled. whats the use? ahahha. okaay, i saved a hundred buck at least. and i need to get the retarded sch u photo for ezlink. pfft. i dont have time for the whole week. and ive that lousy 40dollars popular vouchers that expire on april 30th. -.- and i'll be leaving school at 9 plus everyday. HHHAHA. oh my tian.

DANCE NIGHT in 4 days' time. (:

i think my mums right. i should be more focussed when im doing stuffs. i should always concentrate on what im doing. today i was crossing the road without even looking out for cars. okaaay, this is really baaaadd. i dont know why im always in a daze. i can just blank out for a moment, and the next moment i'll still be listening to lectures. perhaps its the stress and fatigue. but ive always been like that. my mind will just wander away when im talking, walking, listening. SOME TIMES. only when im dancing, i'll put my heart and soul and concentrate. because it will be really bad if i didnt.

sighs. more tests coming up. im quite prepared to screw them all up. HAHHA. =p

tilll here. loves.

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o-town's all or nothing is still the best. (:

Pleasure is the flower that passes; remembrance, the lasting perfume.

2008-04-26T20:28:00.004+08:00

MEMORIES.

it was a really emotional moment when my dad's car turned into clementi street 41 yesterday. that surge of feeling is so so strong that it stung my eyes and make my heart ache. i truly feel at home. all the good old memories came rushing in. everything looks the same as before, but i dont belong there already. was hugging melhoe, ziqin, evon real tight when i saw them. it has been so long.

speech day was boring. i was sitting next to PAO. ac and rj?! nono, cant click! haaha. but we ended up dozing off at the same time and laughing at random stuffs. (: last year's speech day, we sat tgt, being the muggers, grumbling away about how speech day is such a waste of time, and that the time could be used to studyyy. IM SURE. i still remember the whole craazy period when we are the only ones burying our heads in notes while everyone was having their break, chionging work, and chionging to ask qns. GOSH, no one does that with me now laaaa. and its so so difficult to meet up now. its like everyone has diff priorities. i can understand. but we aint expecting much. it has been such a long time since we met up, its not a really nice feeling thinking about it. so it ended up with just the three of us and louis. but im grateful for that already, better than not seeing them at all. and we started talking, enjoyed ourselves, but i know we all felt that theres sth amiss. its like after tonight, we're going to go back to jc life, and it wont be soon before we meet up again. not that i dont love rj, just that memories are always the best. i really really miss you girls. i really hope you all are doing fine, having fun, being happy, enjoying school and taking good care of yourselves. esp gwee! always make me worry the most! get well soon and eat more vitamins. and dont overwork please. and i cant believe it, after such a long time, theres still people who are bearring grudges, trying to pull people to her 'side'. i dont uds, why destroy this friendship. why cant she just let things go? ive no idea how ive offended her ANYWAY. aaahhh. nevermind. thats not the point, some people just cant click izen it?

the dancers wore OAIOAIOAI costumes! ((: i wish i was the one up there, tossing my head and hair, getting all those muscle aches and enjoying myself with the rest. GOSH. jsut seeing the costume makes me really saaad already! nhds, will always have a space in my heart. i can never never forget everything ive learnt there.

and MR CHOW WASNT THERE. SAW HIS BLOG, HE CAME BACK ON THURS. and he was on the papers a few days ago. i thought i would be able to meet him! aaahhhh. heres the link to the article :

http://www.straitstimes.com:80/Free/Story/STIStory_228371.html

and oh, i lost my wallet. nothing new. HAHAHA. and i love long bus rides!(:

NEXT WEEK! im gona survive it right?

OHMYTIAN. SHIFU BOUGHT US MILO MCFLURRRYYYYY (: IT WAS SO HEAVENLY! I CAN FEEL MY HAPPINESS LEVEL SHOOTING UP LAAA. ahem, then some malay guy wenta kill the esctacy. lousy chunyue AH MA thinks its too sweet, i thought it was jsut right for my taste. ahhah. im a SWEEEEETT GIRL. okay, not that chunyue izen laaaa. OH NO, but SHE IS SO NOT SWEET! she calls me _ _ _ _ _ _ grace. IM SURE LAAA. MILO MCFLURRRYYYY IS MY NEW LOVE (: SAY BYE TO DRUMLETS. eh, but its damn sinful. it was so horrible that i decided to climb stairs home instead. HAHA. retarded.

ONE THOUSAND AND ONE THINGS

2008-04-21T18:58:00.002+08:00

WARNING: this to-do list may seem a teeny wheeny bimbotic, but hey, IM A 240 GIRL OKAY. hhahah.

1oo) cut my nails and file it. get them back to good shape.
2oo) go for a haircut. (after dance night, if not laoshi will kill me)
3oo) finish reading my notes (boring!)
4oo) return that library book which i didnt even flip open. mind you, it is due last week. I KNOW BISHAN LIBRARY IS NEAR. it is either i forgot to bring the book, or i forgot that the book is in my bag. -.-)
500) make sure my speech day stuffs are prepared. (thanks vidya and angela (:)
600) get my gpp research down. IVE GOTA REMEMBER. i dont want to repeat this morning's mad rush where i leapt out of bed after remembering that i havent done my research. and i guess this is the cause of my headache now.
700) send my phone for some checks and get a new handphone pouch. it kept restarting itself, and sucking away half of my battery at the same time. also, clear my inbox (selectively).
800) curb addiction. smsing, drumlets, sleeping addictions. tough one eh.
900) go for some retail therapy which i desperately need. alone i guess. no one can stand my shopping style
1000) sew my costume, or hope that ive grown fatter so i wont have to do it. and repair my fan.
1) get over something by 1st may. this is a must. if not the future will be bleak.

and here goes my 1001 things. oh my tian. they are all such small and simple stuffs, but when they all accumulate, it is really HORRIBLE.

and another thing, ive noticed a change in me (: i dunoo if its good or bad. i found out i love listening to others, and i prefer to be quiet so i can listen. so dont worry when i dont talk sometimes, im just enjoying listening people talk. weird, but im serious. (:

till here (:

SUNDAY.

2008-04-20T08:54:00.002+08:00

BLAAAAAHH. IZIT SO IMPOSSIBLE TO ASK FOR A CAREFREE DAY WHERE I CAN STAY HOME, RELAX, CONCENTRATE ON MY WORK AND PREPARE FOR THE NEXT WEEK?

ACTUALLY I SAW THIS COMING, ITS JUST SOONER OR LATER. BUT HOW I WISHED SHE CAN JUST SCOLD ME STRAIGHT, RATHER THAN BEAT AROUND THE BUSH AND GIVE SARCASTIC AND HURTFUL REMARKS. THIS IS SO SO IRRITATING. RAWR. MAYBE I SHOULD GET OUT OF THE HOUSE ON SUNDAYS TOO. FIND A TUITION AND STAY THERE FOR THE REST OF THE DAY TO MUG, OWELLS. AND APPARENTLY, DUE TO SOME PSYCHIC POWER OF HERS, SHES REALLY CONVINCED THAT IM NOT STUDYING AT ALL. AAAHH, WHO CARES?

OKAAAY RANTINGS OVER. NOW IVE TO GET MORE CHOCS TO REPLENISH THE HAPPINESS LEVEL IN ME AND PRAY HARD THAT CHOCS WILL HELP. TOTALLY. OFF TO MY PI! ><

I PROMISE.

2008-04-19T07:01:00.002+08:00

Well I'll always be there for you
When you need someone well I'll be that one
Well I'll do all my best to protect you
When the tears get me all right
Well I'll be the one that's by your side

Chorus:
Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

When you're sick I'll take care of you
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Well I'll be there to make you strong
And to lean on
When this world has turned so cold
Well I'll be the one that's there to hold

Chorus:
Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

And I'll love you more everyday
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
There for you

Chorus:
Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

I promise
I promise
When you call me
I promise
I promise I will

greaaat song (: and guess what, this song made me cry. i have always thought bon jovi's always will be the last song that will have that effect on me. aaahhh. this week has been craaaazy! and my school work is suffering. but i like (: cause ive the company of great friends. it feels really good that at the end of the hectic and tiring day, you meet up with friends and walked home under the moonlight! (: shall blog more next time. dance today and meeting. then i'll go fnd phoon and ong and pester them! =p

TO THE FIVE SPECIAL SOMEONES

2008-04-13T19:23:00.001+08:00

to someone, you said you'll try hard to get use to it. i really hope you'll do it. dont be upset all by yourself cause by doing so, we will hurt as much as you do. never feel bad for making us sad cause thats what friends are for. we are here not only to share your joy, but also your fears and your problems.

to someone, kinda admire the way you handle your emotions, showing your true feelings, speaking your mind out. it certainly made things easier. and for the other matter, things had been done. dont lose faith though (: hope nothing changes.

to someone, im not exactly okay. i think time and a whole lot of chocs are the only things that can help me. so dont worry! and yeaaap, i think we'll all have grown stronger after all these. (:

to someone, i know im losing you. and i am really really upset. letting go of this friendship must be the toughest decision i had to make. but do i have a choice? im sorry for everything. this pain is going to stay with me for a long long time. its so not worth it.

to someone, HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD. i know last week was rather bad for you. we agreed that it cant get worse right! hahha. i really wish to be with you through all these difficult times but i cant =( so meanwhile, take good care and dont overwork yourself okaay! REALLY HAPPY TO KNOW URE MUGGING HARD (: saturday!

much loves <3s

BIRTHDAY (:

2008-04-12T21:06:00.003+08:00

birthday post! (:

MANY THANKS :

ZHANNI- for the puzzle and letter. hahah. i havent finish the puzzle yet! and the letter is so -.- LIKE HELLOO ITS MY BIRTHDAY AND URE COUNTING DOWN TO YOURS?! HAHHAHA. but still, im honoured. THANKS (:

GLADYS AND GIFTWRAPPER- for the EEYORE dustbin and soft toy. HAHHA. real cute please. you think i'll use it as a rubbish bin?! and the chocs too! hahha. kept everyone awake during math lecture! =p

ANGELA, PRIYA, ADELINE, XUNJIE, VIDHYA- for the purple bottle. hahha. you girls got a shock when i whipped out my bottle that day right! ahhah. and thanks for the sweets also.

CHRISTOPHER, YONGKONG- for the blue notebook! hhahha. (:

and stanley, hongrui, andrew, who went for the buffet lunch! cause i had so much fun there.

SHIFU, CHUNYUE, SHUH- for the HALLS AND POLO. hahhah. and the two super sweet letters which made me think that i dont need candy for the rest of my life. HAHHAHA. GET WHAT I MEAN? and the BLOUSE. IM STILL SQUEEZING OUT MY CREATIVE JUICE TO THINK OF HOW TO WEAR IT. HAHHA. it looks really artistic, kinda. HHAHA. loves! <3

SHIFU, LEONARD- for the really preeettttyyy necklace (: we'll wear it often!

SAMUEL- for the baton! HAHHA. and interesting seven uses! really coool okaaay!

JUSTIN- for the star necklace! hahaha. really beauutiful too (:

ALVINA & ANDY- for the belgiun chocs. its HEAVENLY i tell ya! HAHHA. rawking. chocs make me HAAAAPPPPYYY. =D

CHERYL LOH, YUEYUN, JANICE- for the really CUTE SMILEY BALLOOON! (: my sister was really jealous when i brought it home! HAHAH. thanks ALOT(:

MARCUS- for the cake (and ckm!) , bear, chocs WHICH I REALLY LOVE ALOT ALOT (: and i feel really baaad! THANKS ALOT =D

PHOON- for the DVD! HAHAH. and the TINIEST LETTER IVE EVER RECEIVED. tiny but its bursting with love! i swear i was tearing when i read the letter okay. though it wasnt meant to be saaaad. AAAAHHH.

YUJIE- for the ULTRA BIG BOARD WITH MY BEAUTIFUL NAME ON IT. and a whole lot of hard work on it. YOUR DRAWINGS ARE FOREVER SO CHEERY AND CUTEEEEE. AND TELL YA WHAT, ITS HANGING IN MY LIVING ROOM NOW! hahha. i made my mum do that. ahhha.

okaaay i hoped i didnt misssed anyone out. ure allowed to smack me if i did miss out. ive really bad memory you see. HAHHA.

and ALL WHO WISHED ME. I SHALL NOT LIST CAUSE ITS WAY TOO LONG. HAHHA. sounds so bhb. but i really feel loved! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ALL ARE, REALLY GLAD YOU PEOPLE REMEMBERED AND THANKS FOR THE MESSAGES WHICH REALLLY MADE MY DAY. much much loves. YAAAAAAYYYY.

and today when meiting and yujie and me are going home, i was really saaad and all. cause i'd such a great time with them, talking, getting all high. like going back to the past, where nan hua is where we belong still. but we're all now complaining about the hectic life in jcs and comparing whose life is tougher and all. but nevertheless we still had so much fun. they are the few people whom i can just sit down alll daaay and talk and still feel that the day is really well-spent. and when we're leaving, i thought i felt tears forming. but when meiting reminded us that we're gona meet next week again for dance lessons, it makes saying goodbye so much easier all of a sudden. ahahhah. I THINK IVE CONTRACTED THIS TERMINAL DISEASE, called nanhua-sickness. HAHAHHA.

okaaay, im going to BAATHHHEEEE. i stink, like how a pig smells after rolling in the mud (: HEEEE.

2008-04-12T06:54:00.002+08:00

I JUST WANT TO STAY HOME AND SLEEP THROUGH THE DAY.
ignoring the pain in my heart, confusion in my mind, and tears that cannot be contained much longer.

BUT I CANT :(

last night was a huge torture. i would never want to risk this friendship if i were you. and ure making my worst nightmare come through. i never want to lose a friendship to something that i dont believe in. and it just happened.

a thread around my finger

2008-04-09T22:48:00.002+08:00

OKAAAAY. just TWO THINGS. birthday updates will come sooon. like in 4 days' time? HAHHA

firstly, i REALLY REALLY HATE the zilianers who spammed me with messages these 2 days! (: MAKE MY HEART ACHE ALOT ALOT. LIKE PLEASE, YOU GIRLS HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I MISS YOU ALL! I GUESS YOU ALL DO KNOW, CAUSE URE EXPERIENCING THE SAME THING RIGHT. ZIQIN WENT, ITS RAINING, AND THE RAIN KINDA MAKES ME THINK OF ZILIANERS. TOTALLY. PEIYING WENT, THE BAD MONTH IS HERE! LIKE WE DONT EVEN HAVE THE CHANCE TO MEET EACH OTHER OFTEN NOWADAYS LAAA. I STILL RMB, LAST YEAR, ALL OF US WERE DREADING APRIL TO COME. AND WHEN IT CAME, WE WERE LIKE PRAYING SO HARD, THAT NTH BAD HAPPENS. AND APRIL WENT BY, WITH LAUGHTER JOY AND FUN. MELINDA WENT, I SUDDENLY MISSED NANHUA ALOT. ME TOOOOOO. LIKE SO FREAKING MUCH THAT I DREAMT OF ME BEING IN NANHUA AGAIN! OKAAAAY. I SOUND REALLY REALLY JI DONG. AND YEAP I AM. I REALLY REALLY NEED TO MEET UP WITH YOU GIRLS SOON YA. 26TH APRIL IS SUCH A LONG WAAAY. AAAHHHH. TILL THEN (: JUST DO REMEMBER THAT THERES STILL A FRIEND OUT THERE, WHO LOVES YOU AS MUCH AS BEFORE, WHO LISTENS AND SHARE WHENEVER YOU WANT TO. LOVES, MISSES, HUGS, KISSES.

secondly, i really admire people who are family-minded. is that what you call it? its like the best thing in the world, to put family first. above everything else, you will love your family. giving your love, sacrificing everything, just to make your family members happy and blessed. and this is what i call true happiness. so simple yet fulfilling.
but i seriously think that im not able to do this. which kinda make me real disappointed in myself.

SHE WRAPS THE TRUTH INSIDE HER LIES.

2008-04-01T15:30:00.002+08:00

BRIDGE CAMP WAS AMAZING! minus the fact that ive to miss quite alot due to dance pracs. HAHHA. im just laaazy. please kindly refer to shifu's or shuh's blog for more details. just yeaap, it was the BEST camp ive ever been to, with company of the BESTest poeple. ((:

sundaaay morning was horrendous. it was so so torturous for me to wake up at 6. i kept dozing back to sleep on my way to sao mu, until 9 oclk when the sun shone directly onto my face that i start to feel awake. needless to say, my mum was rather mad with me for not being more enthu about sao mu since its like once in a year. but i did apologise to my grandpas, great grandparents. hahaha. anyway, i decided to go to meet zhanni at vivo straight as theres a direct bus from moun vernon. and the super lucky grace didnt miss a stop! i was sleeping throughout th 50mins and when i open my eyes, DANG, vivo appeared before my eyes. HAHHA. yeaaaah. so i was like mopping around vivo searching for present. and despite my sleepy state, we managed to get nice presents! (: totally. and shopping makes me awake, by a little. hahah. and i think zhanni is the only one besides a few others who can tolerate my shopping habits. hahah. good stamina is the key for shopping well. and spending your money correctly. ahaha. i felt rather accomplished by the end of the day but went home a 100bucks poorer.

sunday night and monday morning were spent rushing work. hahah. i didnt realise theres so much work to be done. and gp is the worse. haahah. but mrs lee wasnt here. like i almost went maaad. and we're supposed to go AQ, which everyone thought will be fast and we'll go for early break. but no, it was really tough and as usual, im gona screw it up. HAHHA. but the lesson was rly funy with two blurpokes beside me. HAHHA. and giftwrapper's FAULTY stickers were being passed around for everyone to laugh at. hahha. math lecture was really entertaining with the lecturer. and we were discussing on what flavour icecream to eat after school! hahah. MINGZHE IS REALLY GIGGLISH. econs was boring to th core. was dozing off. yawns. sat around with class peopl after school and met up with chunyue to mug! it was super productive. my PI idea is quite done! (: total rawking. shifu came to join us after that and we sat down and talked. he kept pestering us to do work but he himself izen doing any! when he wants to go to sleep i will poke him and ask him to do work! hahha. shuh came and after some procrastinating, we left school.

i decided against going home and went shopping alone at vivo. i realised i forgot to buy some stuffs and i was quite free ytdy. HAHAH. i think im one of those weird people who thinks shopping alone is fun. hahaha. reached home and i saw funeral at my void deck. kinda reminds me of the fateful day eight months ago. my heart was thumping when i walked past, praying hard that it wont be someone i know. but i recognised th auntie, not really close but i still see her around some times. blaaaaah. shes barely 60. pffft. come to think of it, life is really short. in just a few days i'll be 17, and if i were to die at the age of 60, ive already lived a third of my life. this is just the beginning. after i leave jc, the real stuffs will set in and thats when life gets really tough. aaahhh. future is bleak because it is the present now, someone told me this before. hahha.

home was chaotic. i was really angry with my mum for applying for a job without letting us know beforehand. her operation was just a year ago, and till now shes still complaining of her back ache and stuffs and now she wants to work! pfft. i know its really boring to stay at home doing nth but watch tvee all day, but i think its rly not worth it to risk the possibility of damaging the back again. aaahh. she just doesnt uds, so i was fuming all through dinner and my brother was giving me black face. too bad, since you guys didnt wana say anything, i can just be the one to make a big fuss. owells. and im worried for my sister big time. her grades are like getting worse and she seemed nonchalant about it. she kept having the mindset that it will just be like primary school when she can just scrap through without studying. but history geog, how to not study! tsk. then my mum was scolding me for being too harsh on her. again, im the bad guy. but my mum izen doing anything about it which really pissed me off. shes not the baby anymore.

okaay enough of rantings. todaaay was rather good considering i completed my math, chem, physics. econs left. ahaha. i totally have no idea how to do econs. oh no. till here! (: and people kept asking me if im excited that my birthday is drawing near. narh, not exactly, and i dunoo why either. hahah. but im gona spend my day really well with really nice people. HUGE GRINS (:

sorry i cant help but getting emo all alone again. emo emo emo. i actually teared when i was reading a blog. i dont know what got into me, but i cant seem to ignore the dreadful feeling in me. it feels really great some times, to allow myself to indulge and cry and cry until i feel really weak and empty. today seems to be a good day for this indulgence.

EMAIL (:

2008-03-30T19:48:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

-email from shana.

shall blog some other daaay. the homework is calling for graace. "come grace come. come into my warm embrace," says the homework. HAHHAHA.

WATCH MY HEARTSTRINGS COME UNDONE.

2008-03-25T21:22:00.002+08:00

what a day!

SIGHS.

im so going to survive this week! yes i will. i hope.

A SMILEY TO PERK MYSELF UP. maaaad.

and i like reading cheeyew's blog! hahha. blog more hitler ho! (:
ive gotten dance ord video (:

WHEN THE MIND IS IN WHIRLS.

2008-03-24T18:00:00.002+08:00

todaaay was a very truamatising day for giftwrapper! and for many days to come, he will be traumatised. HAHAHHA. his expression is totally priceless!

monday oranges! 4 hours of school todaaay is pointless i guess. just that our class was super noisy during math lecture. and giftwrapper cudnt stop laughing and yongkong cudnt stop singing even with his braces on! tabbi and nicole will be gone for a week. blaaaah. less girl power in class! all da best girls! ahhaha. lunched with zhanni, adeline and angela. delifrance student meal izen niceee! pfft. hhaha. then zhanni and i wenta ask for donations from our niceee nj friends! wanying and constance donated to meee! yaaaay. im realy grateful! nh people are nice =D

went home to babysit. me and my sister ended up sleeping like pigs and my mum had to knock for like 5mins before we realised. HAHHAHA. and i should have slept later! it was like raining after i woke up! hahahh. totally.

shifu has been nagging at me big time! and please shifu, you are not better! xD hes eating mint chocs, im eating peppermint icecream. i think mine is more heavenly! HAHAHA. dont snatch mint chocs from me laaa. go eat your strawberry. HAHAH.

yaaaay. good start for the week!

THE SWEETEST SADNESS IN YOUR EYES

2008-03-23T21:15:00.002+08:00

actually ive not much to blog about. so this post shall be in point form (:

1) we think we are addicted to bridge.

2) laoshi didnt pai me in for the first part of the dance. i think its because of my lousy skills, not exactly my height. kinda disappointed, but ive just gota make do with it i guess. pfft. the feeling izen good.

3) family gathering. i was dozing off on the comfy sofa while they were chatting away and eating.

4) but when i reached home and started chatting, i dont feel sleepy at all. am i antisocial or what? hahah

5) todaaay is CHEN SHUJUN'S BURFDAAAAY! =D i still rmb i forgot about it last year and i was super upset over it. HAHHA.

6) i cant meet up with cindy gwee tomorrow. im sorry girl. 31st okay (:

7) dance pracs on wed fri and sat next week with exco interviews. ive bridge camp from friday to sunday. urgghhh. why clash? =(

8) im sorrry to all who asked if i can buy fun-o-rama tics from them!

9) i wenta visit my grandma todaaay. she said im very distracting. HHAHAH. as usual.

10) a great sense of accomplishment. since i finished reading shifu's blog! yaaaay. and shifu promised to smuggle chocs into rehab for me in future. very noble of him. but at the same time, hes horrible too. hhaha. split personality!

11) og breakfast tmr! but ive to reach school at 9.15 for dance's phototaking session. (:

im just down for no reason. not EMO. just down. pfft. i really really need a strong dose of chocs right now. pfft. but all in all, its really a nice weekend since i sort of replenished my energy with all my naps. HERE I COME MONDAAAY. delifrance lunch tmr! (: gladys and zhanni! hahah.

you left me so vulnerable.

2008-03-22T22:43:00.001+08:00

my shifu is very kewl when he play bridge ^^

NOT GONA LEAVE MY HEART OPEN.

2008-03-21T20:32:00.002+08:00

SINFUL INDULGENCE

my brother is to be blamed for tempting us to go to eat crabs. apparently its called STILL ROAD's crabs. its name explains how famous it is. and theres already a long queue when we reached at 5. hahhaa. its just a normal coffeeshop, but evryone there is eating crabs. and i mean really, just crabs and no other dishes. hahha. but i got rather pissed off when theres two people in front who ordered for a table of 8! and when they are finally seated, the table izen even half-filled yet! i think they should have the rule like, " food will be served once you are seated." totally. hahah. okaaay, my brothers were saying i look like the sort who will take picture of this kinda situation and send it to STOMP! hahha. im sure i look like a complain queen. pffft. im just desperate to sink my teeth into the juicy flesh of the crabs. HAHAHHA. the black pepper one totally own the chilli one. but it was too spicy and hot that i cant really taste the flesh. hahha. but still its really yummmyy. wheeeee.

BUT THAT ALSO MEANS THAT IVE TO RUN A FEW MORE ROUNDS ON SUN. i cant stand it when i always get stitches when im running on the track. with or without breakfast. irritating. pfft.

my chem prac ytdy was the most successful one among all those ive done since school starts. ahhaha. but the gloves stink big timeeee. after school shuh chunyue leening jenwei and shifu went bugis for our friday bag shopping. despite the tight budget, we managed to get our bags! yaaaay. but im broke, horribly broke. i havent been asking my dad for more allowance this year, cause i promised myself to try to manage my money well. owells, im so gona break this promise. pfft. and bugis street is so so crowded, somehow killed my shopping spirit. i would rather visit bangkok every year and stock up the clothes there. and speaking of this, ive to go fork out money to pay my cousin who bought a bag-full of tees for me from bangkok. am i greedy or am i greedy. hahhah. totally.

ohno. i am only at may 07 for shifu's blogggg! its amazing how he manage to read the posts so quickly. and remember everything. how come ive this feeling that he understands me better than myself. talk about self-reflecting. hahhaa.

tomorrow will be a hectic daaaay. next sunday will be worse. ive no idea what will happened next sunday! i hope i wont screw things up. owells.

and my brother has decided on his wedding date. 21 Sept 2009. which is like so so near Alvls. i was kicking up a fuss this morning. it was kinda expected that the preparation will be equals to world war at home. and how am i going to study with all these chaos! rawr. i feel like killing him. ahhaha. but he offered me his house to go study since its like so near. i can only study well at home you see. (:

i neeeed sleeeep! and and i saw a really round BRIGHT yellow moon just now! =D funness.

LIFE CONTINUES.

2008-03-19T22:01:00.003+08:00

IM OFFICIALLY KNOWN AS TAPE CUTTER IN MINGZHE'S BLOG. HAHAHAH. super funnny.

and i love physics prac. totally! hahah. training pacs! ahhaha. was laughing so hard for 5 mins straight. i see mingzhe's face i feel like laughing alr. so its like continuously. then i see slau with his hyper active actions, i started laughing again. OH NO. no one was listening and actually what she was talking was a total diff thing from the experiment ANYWAY. HAHHA. okay, i declare PHYSICS PRAC AS THE FUNNEST AND FUNNIEST LESSON! yaaaay =D totally made my day.

till here. short post. im gona sleeeeeepppp (:

CLOUD NINE

2008-03-17T19:47:00.004+08:00

GRACE IS A HAAAAPPPPYYY GIRL AGAIN (: IVE MONDAY ORANGES (:

lets start from friday!
met up with chunyue and shuh at bishan library to slack around! i wenta pick up a palmistry book and a ghost book. hahah. ended up spending 2hours studying our palms. ahem. i mean chunyue. she was pestering us to show her our palms! hahaha. since the ghost book was rather boring with zero gory details, i decided to join chunyue in the study of palmistry! HAHAH. shuh was so irritated with us laaaa. and i was so HORRIFIED to find out that ive NO FATE LINE. means no purpose in life etc etc. BUT BUT I MADE A NEW DISCOVERY TODAY PEOPLE! i found a really realy faint fate line okaaaay! i was so elated. but upon close inspection, it looks really faint. pfft. not much a diff right, faint vs invisible. fine fine, i shall be an adventurer ((: yeaaap. after that went to bridge. learnt opening lead, but im confused as usual. shall wait for shifu to re-teach! ahha. played a few games. AND I DONT HAVE A PARTNER! pfft. and me and shuh went down in search for TDH! and sth really embarrassing happened. i shall not disclose here but it was really really FUNNNY. AHHAHA. sheesh. and we went SCBA for the first time! totally serious there. we cant stand it, so we went outside to play ourselves. and alvin and andy were so so irritating with their AHEM tricks. but apparently their tricks failed miserably! hahaha. got me laughing super hard laaa. shifu wants us to go play on 4th april. ive to improve on my skills before that! hahh.

saturday!
had dance in the afternoon. totally lethargic! after dance, went off to meet my beloved PHOON and YANYAN. phoon was sick and i kinda feel bad to pull her along! hahha. but her SEXY VOICE WAS ATTRACTIVE =p and they almost wanted to kill me cause im not sure of how to get to VCH exactly. hahah. but i did find the way there. STREET SMART I CALL IT =D okaay. stop boasting! anyways, we wenta eat at HAN'S and camwhored all the way. invited weird stares but we just laugh it off. hahahh. the performance was greaaaat! especially DIY's !its a fresh idea and it made an impression! ahahha. rv's zhui lang was good too. took 100 home and i spent 55 mins standing up. it was so so packed. pfft.

sunday!
met cindy in the morning at fareast. that blur girl got lost! i waited for 15mins and msg-ed her, "gosh, where are you now? it is either you are walking real slowly or you are really lost and dont know it." hahah. but she appeared the next minute with her killer stare. HAHHA. my fault! =p walked in circles while waiting for the shop to be opened. and we talked alot too (: i was so tempted to give her a BIG HUG. cause evrytime she mentioned hc, i can feel the overwhelming sadness. pfft. i may not experience it first hand, but i very well know how it feels. like theres something detached all of the sudden. i feel rather upset for not being with her through those tough times, but im always willing to listen. im really grateful how comfortable she felt, how at ease when shes with me, pouring out her troubles. ahhaha. looovvvvess (: and after talking to gwee, im so motivated to studddyyy again! yaaaay. we ordered the caps and wenta watch STEP UP2. shall not comment, but i like contemp more than streets. ahahha. we went back to collect the caps and craaazy us decided to make one each for ourselves laaaaa! and i seriously think when im with gwee, ive LES TENDENCY. whats up with the I LOVE CINDY & I LOVE GRACE?! hahahah. nevermind, I LIKE (: chionged to serangoon to meet up with mel and pass her the couple caps. yaaaay, nice friends like us! HAAPPPY SECOND YEAR! =D and gwee and mel, all da best for council! keep the passion burning yeaaa! <3s

DREAM A LITTLE DREAM.HHAHAH.

AWWWW. DONT KISSS MEEEE x)

totally retarded. ahaha. DRAMA QUEENS.

FINAALLY A NICE ONE! HAHHA. LOVESSS. PHOON ME REBECCA.

VICTORIA CONCERT HALL. this looks like a typical TRAVEL, place of interest picture! HHAHA.

I LIKE THIS SHOT ALOT (:

GWEE LOOKS REALLY CUTE TO THE MAX.

((:

LOVVVEEES <3s

ahhaha. pardon the colours and all. i was trying out the TINT function on my phone. looks nice yeaaa! HAHAH.

havent been in my best of moods for the past few days! but thankyou all who asked and encouraged. special thanks to SHIFU, who gave me the "insanely optimistic" idea! hhahah. im still considering it! and never allow me to let my smile falter! (: all da best for cts!

not forgetting, the one and only idiot who went all out to turn my frown upside down without even knowing what happened. totally amazing (:

FRIDAY BAGS OKAY SHUH AND CHUNYUE! =D

RAINING DONKEYS!

2008-03-13T20:09:00.002+08:00

i think the weather has affected me somehow. makes me wana be a couch potato and stay home all daaayy. aaahhh. laaazy genes acting up again.

okaaay, this sucks to the core. i cant post anything. just that, today didnt feel good. pfft. =(

eric gave me inspiration on what to blog. yesss. bitch about the weather. TOTALLY. the rain caused me to slip and fall while i was crossing the road. i cant believe it, i can just fall when walking. hahhaa. and miraculously my hands were unhurt, just my knees. so now my legs are seriously scarred. 5 plasters. i shall just wear long pants out these days. pfft. my mum wants me to apply antiseptic. VERY FUNNY, i think the whole of serangoon can hear me scream. IM SURE. hahah. so i'll just let the wounds rot until im ready to take the plunge. HAHHAH. sorrry, im being dramatic again. and yeaap. i think it will be rather cool if the whole of singapore floods and we;ll have to swim/canoe/dive to get to places! imagine evryone doing that! (:

alrights. weather is super lousyyy. but life still goes on.

i dont want tomorrow to come. how am i going to conceal the searing pain? when am i going to stop hurting and be reminded of the past? taking the first step out izzen easy, so im not trying for now.

JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY

2008-03-12T10:57:00.001+08:00

to see people around me hurt the same way i hurt, heartwrenching. really.

EVERYTHING JUST FELT SO UNREAL

2008-03-11T19:29:00.002+08:00

changing blogskin really helps i guess (: im coming here to blog like everydaaaay! =D FUNNESS.

long bus ride home todaaay. i think it really helps alot, considering my messed-up state of mind. besides, i did a good deed and it got me thinking again. sometimes adults can be worse off than kids/teenagers. im sure everyone with working eyes can see that the old woman was having so much difficulty trying to balance herself (because the driver was rather reckless and its raining!) but nobody offered her a seat. zzzz. pfft. things like that pissed me off big time! some adults really have biased views. take for example my parents, as in my real mum and dad. they keep teaching me stuffs like dont trust anyone at all with your money, can only trust yourself, people out there are out to cheat you etc. whats with the cynicism? why see the negative sides of people? i know i might be scolded naive since i always choose to see the better sides of people (except for some). but maybe with this point of view, life will be easier and less complicated. hahha. at least this is what i believe in. (:

i realised its quite random! HAHHAH. cause i was so irritated by my parents. PFFT!

ANYWAY! i went NAN HUA TODAY. hot stuffs below cause we are all in a camwhore mood! total FUNNESS. played bridge, talked, laughed, went craaazy, jumping around! i really miss the old times (: and we kept complaining that our dances are SO NOT feminine. we were listing out all the dances we learnt. BANANA COSTUMES! ahahha. PICTURES COMING UP =D

IVY AND ME. (:

ivy, grace, wengmaan, xinyue, yujie! MANY MANY LOVESSS.

MARKS ON THE FLOOR. PROUDLY BY OAI OAI OAI, CHINGAY and CONTRADICTIONs. memories (:

DAAANNCCEEEE <3s

I MISS THIS HALL AND THIS SCENE SO MUCH. I WANA SIT DOWN THERE LISTENING TO LAOSHI TALK. =(

I MISS NANHUA ALOT ALOT. especially the people! blaaaaah.

MY BROTHER JUST CAME HOME. PFFT. NO COMP FOR ME TONIGHT AGAIN. NO BBO. SORRRY CHUNYUE. >.< i wonder if hes a triad leader last life, i mean my brother. that attitude! TSK. i was telling shuh how much i miss the og todaaaay! (: although it was only yesterday that we met up. OG ADDICTION, WHAT ABOUT THAT?! incurable. irreplaceable. HAHHA. till here.. BYEEEE (:

THE WAY YOU MADE MY WORLD GO ROUND

2008-03-10T20:45:00.002+08:00

I THINK WHOEVER IS READING THIS CAN JUST CALL THE AMBULANCE NOW, LIKE IM DYING ANYTIME NOW. seriously. HAHHA. okkk. drama queen grace. but PIMPABLE?! tsktsk. bad bad. hahahha.

went library despite my horrible stomach. was quite productive with ear phones on. i seriously need blasting music to motivate me to do work. ahhaha. and im 4TH STOREY. owells, i prefer not to disclose what it means here, jsut take it as an inside joke. but EH! WHOS THE MEAN ONE HERE? hahaha. so we'll like making so much noise in the library. talking and laughing out loud. its really good cause these people put me at ease and im glad too that evryone else can talk freely! ahhahha. i ate 2 double chocs chip todaaay, and i wont get a sore throat tmr (: im sure! so in the end we were forcing shifu to tell us stuffs cause he hears so much of our "secrets" and he izzen contributing to any. HAHA. but we didnt get to dig anything. totally not beneficial laaaa. hahah.

GOING NH DANCE TMR. meeting some of my shitous (: yaaaayyyy. im lookng forward.
okaaay. my week is packed. and i suddenly missed zhanni and gladys alot! but zhanni says she doesnt reciprocate. PFFT. and im sure i got my evilness from zhanni and bitchiness from gladys. HAHAH. PEER INFLUENCE.

and shifu, i had my dinner! hahhaa. u'd better be mugging now and not pimping again!

till here. zhanni freaked me out ALOT. I HATE HER (:

TORTURED

2008-03-09T18:39:00.002+08:00

RIGHT. I THINK IM REALLY MAAAD. I KEPT JUMPING AROUND THE HOUSE WINCING IN PAIN. AAAHHH. JUST LET ME OFF THE HOOKS FOR ONCE. I PROMISE NOT TO EAT 5 MEALS A DAY ANYMORE. MUST BE THAT DIMSUM'S FAULT. >.<

slightly tempted.

WE'LL FIND A PLACE WHERE THE SUN STILL SHINES

2008-03-08T20:19:00.002+08:00

i truly believe, that after i revamped my blog, i'll blog more often! (: HEEEE.

went for dance in the morning. im so gona work hard on my FAN SHENS. if not im gona embarrass myself again. hahaha. shi hui came todayyy! yaaaay. hope she stays. reallly (:

met up with chunyue and shifu at j8 and had lunch. the 2 lazybums decided to return the cans and go watch movie with me. hahhaa. being nice as usual, i helped shifu ask people for donations. yaaaay. i think the people are nice (: but kinda bad to ask students for donation. anw we left j8 for amk hub, and decided on sky of love. its in JAP. and through this movie, shifu is certain that im cold-blooded. HAHHA. chunyue and me just LAUGHED OUT LOUD when the male lead was crying cause apparently chunyue thought he was vommiting + laughing + crying. sheesh. and the cliche storyline makes me wana vomit blood on the spot. ohyah, im SUPPOSED to cry cause of all that parting , dying stuffs. but too bad, i DIDNT (x

mugging starts tmr! oh man. totally dreading! >.<

had tons of fun these few days. and im looking forward to more fun later in the week. shall be my motivation to study! HAHHHA.

im ENFP! =D

2008-03-07T07:22:00.003+08:00

okaaay. its time to give my blog a brand new look. hahaha. some other day perhaps (: laazy genes acting up.

holidays are heree! like finally. and yes, rj students have two more days of holiday. joy oh joy. waking up this early feels good. jogging in the morning feels good too. i felt so accomplished when i finished my round [: and i realised stadium track really sarks big time. its so boring, as quoted by gladys koh. repetitive round izen fun. nh's 2.4 is the best (:

ANYWAY.my holidays are more or less filled to the brim. i dunoo why. evry holiday is the same! i just have last min appointment and go out and thats it, one day gone. ahahha. but for the sake of nice people, i shall not complain so much. i miss them alot alot. im so gona meet zilianers next sunday! meiting yujie and xinyue sooon. and HITLER HO, ure supposed to plan dance gathering right! HAHAHA. but i hope i still have time to mug despite all these. ohyah, and theres still class outing. ive no idea what we're gona do.

dance was super tiring. my arms felt numbed after that. ahhaha. its really tough to master tribal dance i realize. but i'll try. but it feels good dancing after such a long time. i still misses nhds big time, and laoshi! me and ong wana take up jazz lessons but we are just procrastinating evrytime. hahha./ wednesday prac is ji ben gong. watch me dieeeee. hahaha.

all the tests sark big time. CHEM was so so marvellous that i cant bear to look at my chpt 1 notes anymore. it gives me nightmares. math was so so amazing that i blanked out on the spot. econs was so so fantastic that i want to run to the staff room at that moment i handed in the scripts and burn my paper. so this is basically how screwed my tests were. HAHHAHA.

GRACE IS PERPETUALLY HUNGRYYYYY THESE DAYS. im eating 5meals a day and i predict i will get an indigestion soon. wednesday, i had a break at 9.45 and i was super hungry, so i decided to buy porridge and tofu. so i was eating both at the same time and got myself super bloated. at that point of time, i felt like i cant eat anymore for the rest of th day. but guess what? my stomach was growling right after physics prac and i shared a hokkien mee with shuh! OH NO >.<

gladys zhanni and me have been total bitches these days. i cant stand it but its fun (: we aint mean to anyone dont wry. they are just mean to me. gladys constantly asks if i felt bullied, i replied YES, but it doesnt make much difference. HHAHHA. and iceskating was FUNNNNN/ i fell down 4 times and theres blueblack on my leg. gladys said im brave but adeline has more talent. okaaay, im so used to this kinda remarks. hahah

bummed around with chunyue shifu at bugis after shuh left. and charis is shuh's friend, she didnt recognise me! ahhahha. went national library to attempt to study but we ended up having the oh-so-interesting WRITING COMPETITION

2008-02-24T13:43:00.002+08:00

I HAVE UNTIL TWO TO USE THE COMP. ive to start to mug for my tests next week. self discipline. hahah. this week has been BUSY, HECTIC, TIRING. i think my time management is reaally horrible. its like im only doing my work on sundays and mondays. the rest of the week is either going home really late, or watching the tvee. rarrr. i think ive to cut down bridge trng to once a week, if i still cannot manage my work. its kidna scary though, when ure not sure if you uds what uve learnt. i hope i do. honeymoon period ended i think, evryone is settling down now.

class without matilda and jeremy is rather quiet. pfft. screw it. im not really looking forward to new people. although its only 2 mths, but sometimes its just not easy to come to terms with "not seeing each other anymore". reallly wish CHERYL WOONG THAT GIRL can make it baaack!

O2 wasnt as fun as i expected it to be. i dunooo. it doesnt feel right. hahah. but im glad theres still those people arnd to talk to and go craazzy with (: i need a new PENCIL CASE.

met up with meiting ytdy. watched L. reallly good show. shuh must have infected me with the over-active tear glands illness. i was crying when it ended laaa. OOOHHH. u people should go watch. reallly. and yeaapp,we talked alot. i feel reallly bad for neglecting all these lovely people. seriously, it comes back to my horrible time management. i'd better do sth about it.

weekend is gona be over soon. SIAN NESS. i will try to update more often (: and dont worry, im just alil emo in my last post. hahah. LOVE YA ALL <3s

2008-02-16T16:33:00.002+08:00

I AM NOT FEELING GOOD. despite all the good things that happened to me. i think im one ungrateful bitch. reaaallly.

i think life is ironic. i felt like a moron being in this irony. i dont want to be me. why cant i feel what others are feeling? why cant i put more effort and try? ive been asking myself this for many times. i cant get the answer. its no good like that. with me. why are you still staying? why aint you leaving? away from me. i cant. i really cant give and i cant bear to take any longer.

okaay, ignore this if you dont uds. i need to start to get on with my work. its been a long long time since i did my tutorials.

i need to be KILLED. and buried forever.

2008-02-06T15:34:00.000+08:00

BRIDGE WAS CONFUSING. and with the ginseng guy laughing over my stupidity, im even more lost! LOL. brain cells 95% dead after bridge trng is over. seriously. hahah. and it was super stressful laaaa! cause i know ginseng will explode if i bid wrongly! ahhah. and yongsheng is my partner! last night we decided to play bridge online. and like, we are confused! lol. we need to have someone there to guide us. HAHHA.

oh shit. i forgot what i did on monday. oh no. hahah. oohh. we stayed in the library to do chem and search for trebuchet info. haha. and its like the guys in our class went there too. without even telling each other. coincidental. (x

our trebuchet was a disaster! hahah. matilda, angela, zhanni and me went maad and laugh hysterically after we finished. LOL. our group name? "FLIGHT". so totally NOT. LOL.

okaaye. this post is quite boring. im just here so that my mum will be pissed. cause shes rushing me to bathe so that i can go back to my parents' place. super sian. aaahhh. i will miss my bolster >< ok. its only for one damn night. i shall just read my kite runner and the time will fly! hahha. okaayy. uncle's birthday tomorrow! (: so i will send a msg tonight, happy new year and birthday. HAHAH.

dance gathering is quite pathetic. A FEW OF US ONLY. hahah. and im supposed to be pissed with cheeyew who wenta play himself when he claimed to go to call junhe over. ahhaha. dance performance was goood (: im so proud of them. yaaaay.

till here. XIN NIAN KUAI LE EVERYONE (;

and i miss SHUH YING. COME BACK QUICKLY.

im looking forward to TAKE 5! and the SWENSENS TREAT. HEH/.

2008-01-27T08:43:00.000+08:00

OLEVELS RESULT. was very satisfactory for me, cause im able to stay in rj. ((:

and melhoe totally owns, cause she topped the level! like again, 401 topped the level. not being boastful or anything, i just thought that 403 will somehow top the level. hahaha. so our class did well!

and im reaally proud of GWEE [: really!

release of olvls results kinda officially end my school life in nanhua. although ive been in rj for close to a month, evrything still seemed so unreal. like i will be going nh soon. but no, everything is gona settle down soon. all of us are going to go our separate ways, closing this chapter of life, and taking a step towards the future. no matter what, we'll not able to go back to the past, we'll not able to share our every joy, laughter, jokes, tears anymore. these four years were greaaat, even the 2 hours spent on bus everyday to school aint gona change that. and tell you what, im suddenly missing long bus rides :/ long bus rides actually allow me the time to reflect on my day, have a nap, before reaching home for homework. its like a time for myself and my thoughts, for my heart and head to stop whirling and figure a way out.

as ive always said, im always blessed with wonderful friends around me. cindy, melinda, peiying, justine, ziqin, wenhang, evon! the times we stick together, and had tons of fun and keesiao moments. girls like you all make up a wonderful bunch! play hard work hard. im sure, without you all, i wudnt have landed myself in rj. motivate one another to study! hahah. its like, i can just speak my mind, laugh out loud, scream my heart out like no one's business with them. & i guess this is what i call, a friendship where i truly belong.

meiting, yujie, retard, rebecca, xinyu, junyang, junhe, cheeyew. the funnest bunch of pple ever. i will never believe that our batch can ever be so bonded, just by thinking of the pathetic state we're in during sec1 and 2. hahah. but i am reaallly grateful that we are constantly reminding each other that we're all in this together. no matter how tough it is gona be, we can overcome it together. and thats what makes nh dance so different. we all share the same bond, same spirit in our hearts and nothing is going to change that. nhds, a place in my heart, so irreplaceable. its true, so true, that the time in nhds is memorable, unforgettable. & laoshi has oso make my time there reaallly enriching, not only the dance part, but also the moulding of our characters.

not forgetting, huiyu, huishan who has been reaally close to me too.

i dont know why. but i just feel liek typing this out before proceeding on to the new chapter of my life. not that i will close the door of the past, im leaving that door open, so that i can always go back to relinquish all those great memories. the future is full of incertainties, and it upsets me alot that im not going to be there with all my good friends and go through these with them together. but still, im always willing to listen and share. lifetime friends, izzen easy. but i hope we can do it. like how it has been for me and my primary school mates. (:

2008-01-21T19:39:00.000+08:00

JAY CHOU CONCERT WAS GREAAAAT. IT WAS SUPER HIGH AND TOWARDS THE END, ALMOST EVRYONE STOOD UP! AAAAHHH. EVRYONES LIKE SINGING ALONG, SHAKING THE LIGHT STICKS WITH TH SONGS. his singing wasnt reaaly guud, but it is live! yeaaapp. hes not that aloof, very warm, very real. yep. and his ah ma is super super cute. hahah. spontaneous too! WHOOTS. it was truly a memorable night. and yeaaap, phoon was a great company. went craaazy with me. ahhaha. and she totally uds what i mean by not coming back to reality th day after th concert. cause i can still imagine him standing there, singing and dancing. GOSH. (:

olvls results coming out on thurs. im reaallly worried. i cant bear to leave rj. seriously. what would i do if im not going back? i want to have orientation 2 with mr 11. i want to have fun with them all over again. i hope. i hope.

changed sch u today with th gurls in my class. and obviously, no one wants to wear nh uniform. LOL. i wore cedar's! super nice. but the blouse is too big for me. they say they buy blouse of size 4 times their real size. LIKE BIG. ahahha. yeaaa.

wenta nj and hc with zhanni today. met many pple in nj. including nicholas who CANNOT recongnised me. and start screaming when he did finally. srsly feel like stabbing him laaa. hes comical as usual. saw jeslyn and yinghui and we talked quite abit. AHHHAA. coool. but didnt get to see sister!!! heartbroken >.< anw. wenta island creamery with tpy, jus, gwee and mel. its guud to meet u like that when we have the time. and yaaaayy they compromise [: looovvees.

till here. im spending too much time talking on th phone which is so unusual for me. i NEVER talk on the phone, as in chatting and emo-ing. hhahha. but yeaaaa, im getting the hang of it. and it feels reaally guud. okaaaye. LONG DAY TMR. PCME AND GP. totally!!!

2008-01-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

a minute seems like an hour, awkwardness in the moment
searching for familiarity but, i don't know where it went.

a friendly smile and the ice is broken,
pleased to know you my friend. (pleased t know you my friend)
who cares where we came from woah oh oh,
it only counts where we end. (will we ever end)

locking arms, spread our wings get beyond here
we'll chase down all of our fears

hey would you still remember
fun we had together
every time you make me laugh
you know you light up my path

we'll stay friends forever
sharing all the laughter
maybe we will drift apart
but promise you my friend, left you a space in my heart.

recalling that year's september,
in that library corner
memories and melodies we've left here
and all the joys and the tears

locking arms, spread our wings get beyond here
we'll chase down all of our fears

hey would you still remember
fun we had together
every time you make me laugh
you know you light up my path

we'll stay friends forever
sharing all the laughter
maybe we will drift apart
but promise you my friend, left you a space in my heart.

time has passed and we're old now, we're old now.
the walls no longer bear our sounds, bear our sounds.
the feelings lost they can't be found, can't be found
inside of me crying out loud

hey would you still remember
fun we had together
every time you make me laugh
you know you light up my path

we'll stay friends forever
sharing all the laughter
maybe we will drift apart
but promise you my friend, left you a space in my heart.

retard just told me that olvls results may be out on friday. OKAYE, this totally freaked me out. blaaaah. im so so reluctant to leave rj. i want to be there with them during orientation 2 and take 5 and so so many other stuffs. aaahhh. the thought of leaving all these behind just scare me to bits. im so fervently praying that my os results wont sark that much. urggghh.

mr 11 is too wonderful to be true! we may not be th most enthusiastic bunch, we may not be th most talented bunch, we may not be th og which keeps winning. but, in our hearts, deep down, we know, that MR 11 '08 TANTALIZING is the best og ever. because of each of evryone, orientation was A BLAST and post-orientation is equally greaat. from strangers, we came to know one another through three times of icebreaking. then it was the HOKKIEN CHEER that got us all so hyped up (PA BUAY TOH). ea was th most memorable one. im sure evrytime i stepped into sentosa in future, memories will come looming back. then it was the weekends meetings for our o-nite item and costume. war games just tire us out, but all of us were too excited to even care. cross-HAIRING was greaaat. and in th end, we decided that our theme was alien afterall. HHAHA. cause jenwei looks like one. not forgetting, the sun dance :D and all those late nights together. even when all of us were splitted into classes, theres people, liek me, who keeps running back to og, cause this is where we can feel at home, with all th nice people around. somehow, the bond among us is too strong to be broken. I LOVE YA ALL :D

2008-01-13T14:09:00.000+08:00

as i was browsing through blogs, an overwhelming emotion came over me. not heartwarming, not the familiarity, so what am i exactly expecting? we havent been making an effort, including me, i admit. memories do stay, but it seems that promises do not. oh, whatever. no, im not supposed to act nonchalant about this. cause, as it goes, this matters to me a great deal.

anyhows, first week of lecture just came and went. not exactly fun, but im already quite used to the idea of picking up notes and study again. hahha. and thats what almost evryone in rj is doing now! okaye, my class is th exception -.- im so gona study with my og! yeaaapp. tutorials come in tmr onwards. and im sure its not gona be easy. but yupp, th og will definitely keep me going! im sure.

no more monday blues, since my lessons end at 12.30. :D till here, i will post more next time.

HAPPY BURFDAY LEE NING! THE BESTEST OGL IN TH WORLD!

2008-01-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

WOOOHOOOOO. im feeling so LALALALA. MY OG TANTALIZING IS LIKE REALLY REALLY FUN AND ALL. evryday is filled with laughter, jokes and fun. i will update more th next time when orientation is over alrights! (:

this is my first post of 2008. and yeaaapp saying good bye to 2007, i welcome 2008 with open arms. HAHHAH. sounds rly funny! but nvm. yeaaaa. 2007 is filled with much ups and downs. it was quite a tough year for me. i shall review things that i rmb.

1) SYF 2007. it was memorable. being in th exco, being in modern, was really really stressed.. but nevertheless, the practices and all were worthwhile. how we try to have extra pracs and go hiding around. the late nights discussing. and many more. the tears, sweat, joy, i believe, can never be experienced in the same way else where.

2) neighbour's passing. okaye. this reaally affected me alot. life is so so unpredictable. and i am to cherish evryone arnd me(:

....

to be continued. i ought to concentrate on msn convo. ahhaha.

2007-12-30T17:28:00.000+08:00

after reading weihong's post on th chalet, im like at loss of what to write for my own entry. hahah. nevermind, i will try (:

26/12
i woke up early as usual to go to market with my mum to get all those food stuffs. hahah. can really become auntie laaa. like my mum taught me where to get better stuffs. LOL. yeaap. got back home and start to marinate the stingray and prawns. disgusting laaa, and i happily put on a glove. lol. then th BALLS. by th time i finished my lunch and packing all these stuffs its time to set off. met phoon first at pasir ris mrt and my dad drove us there. checked in and waited for th others to arrive. the gurls arrived first, namely RETARD, jeslyn, audrey, jeanette, yinghui. after that the guys namely, weihong, junhe, potat, cheeyew, chunkiat, siian. so we started playing bridge,cheat, heart attack. mahjong side was NOISY cuz of junhe. HAHAHAH. but our heart attack izen better laaa. chuharn, eugene, junyang, yujie, ellise, xinyue, wengmaan came! bbq started! it was one of th most successful ones! hahah. it drizzled now and then, so we decided to bbq all our stuffs first and bring up to the room. ahhaha. end up only prawns were left, which was guud! ahhah. i mean evryone had their fill! (: after that we wanted to eat ben and jerry's. lol. but the icecream tub sold at the ben and jerry's shop is more ex than the one in CHEERS. so yujie, meiting, weihong, junhe, and me shared 2 tubs. we happily sat in mac to eat. ahhah. then ellise called me saying that they are leaving! we ran back to get wengmaan's prezie and her cake. ahhha. we even sang her a burfday song while shes walking out. okaye, theres still like 2 policemen walking infront of us too. LOL.

after that we headed to arcade, i tried the basketball thing, im lousy laaa. hahha. yeaapp, after that pool was alr closed. there was nothing much to do. so me meiting yujie decided to go mac to chat. it was alr 12plus then. ahhah. ordered stuffs and we sat there to talk, for like 3hrs! hahaha. from family, our own friends, dance, to future. and weihong came to look for us for awhile! yeaapp. it feels really guud to talk like this once in awhile, evrytime its dance chalet that we get to do things like this. to sit down and talk like no one's business. hahha. 3plus, we went back room and decided to bathe in th public toilet. hahaha. i wore my 舞 teeshirt! i think its nice. so lugging our bags, we decided to play bridge at the 凉亭. lol. ong was half dead by then. only meiting was highing herself laaa. damn farniee. after like 2hrs, weihong and cheeyew came down to look for us. lol. cheeyew joined th game and he keeps pairing up with meiting. and though im not concentrating, me and yujie still won! lol. meiting was like feng diaooo. HAHA. yeaaap. that night was fuun!

27/12
had breakfast at mac and went loitering arnd. then helped them to ask about room availability. but theres no room, so they decided to go east coast but before that all of us except eugene and junyang went escape. hahah. lots of rides are closed though. inverter was the funnest. i was screaming and laughing at th same time laaaa. cuz ong is laughing beside me tooo! meiting kept complaining we are super noisy. then after that play th horse racing carnival games. paid 20bucks for 1 octopy. LOL. upon leaving, we received a complimentary tics each. and brilliant me thought of selling it at 6 bucks! cuz we aint coming back soon. hahah. so sold to some of th nh seniors, and random people. hahah. so its like we only spend 1buck for escape! haha. but we decided to give my 6bucks for th chalet extension. lol. headed bedok to meet junhe , and we ate there. junhe and me shared black and white fried carrot cake. lol. they were arguing which one is th original one. and tell ya, i was alr dead beat and the super energetic junhe still wants to bicker with me. hahahah. its tiring to sit with him and eat laaa. yupp, then some rj pple called, my mum said it was a teacher. th person told me that we are supposed to register last friday. then i was like, how would i know. then he eve asked me to choose my subjs immediately, yeahhh. and i was like damn pekchek. SUBJECTS LEH, impt leh, how can jsut decide at that time. but he insisted, so i chose chem, bio, maths, econs. all h2. owells. i hope i made th right choice! then separated, went home. i so wanted to stay. tempted, but ive got the zoo trip with zilianers, so ive gota go home to catch some sleep.

yeaaa, but ziqin fell sick, and evon cun stand the sun for long. so zoo trip was cancelled. and under the crazy state of mind, me and meiting decided to go east coast to look for them early in the morn!

28/12
i set my alarm clock at 6! woke up at 6.20. hhhhaha. prepared adn took the train to outram. lucky i was late and i sensed sth amiss when phoon didnt reply my sms! shes still aslp when we are supposed to meet at 7.30! ahhah. okaye, shes faaassst. adn we reached bedok at 8plus. took 196 and clever us alighted at the stop which was nearest th chalet! lol. evryone was sleeping there. junhe was like semi-conscious and kept asking us to hush. lol. so we decided to cycle till they wake up. at first i kept losing my balance, then after that it was fun! though im owaes scared when i see pple near me. ahhaha. then headed burger king. i walked there and i was faster than them! we sat there and eat and talk for a long long time. junhe, weihong, cheeyew, meiting and me talked about evrything under the sun! ahhaha. carefree and all. (: and then we parted, all of us took 196, phoon and me wenta marina square to shop. hahha. zara was on sale and i bought a tee!

yeaaapp. dance chalet is once again GREAAAT. we must really have this once a year in future. im looking forward to countdown. i hope pple can make it laaaa. (:

29/12
watched i am legend with moqi and jus. i waited for them for 45mins. hahha. im like super patient caan. i can wait for pple without flaring up laaaa. we shopped arnd. moqi got an everlast bag which is NICEEEE. and is real suitable for her petite figure. yeaaapp. then i am legend was like 1 and the half hours of scaring myself. im liek totally holding my breath laaa. the ending was abrupt, kinda a disappointment. left me thinking how come it ends so fast. horrible. hahhaa. we are gona watch nanking! (:

TODAY. saw cindy's email. and i was crying when i watched the ppt slide laaa. though its only 1 slide, it already got me bawling. hahaha. many many greaat memories.

"ten years down the road,
we may be miles away from one another..
but,
things change, people change,
and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up.
it simply means that you move on, and treasure the memories.
il never find five more friends more amazing than all of you. "
-cindy gwee :D

lastly, HAPPIE BURFDAY AARON CHAN! sorry, my sms is exploding. hope ya see this! [:

2007-12-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

PHOTOBUCKET IS SLOOOOWWW. lagger. shall post the pics next time. (:

i rather be alone this christmas than celebrating out without you.

2007-12-22T16:59:00.000+08:00

closed door

OKAAYYE, im baack for 3days already. hahah. im just plain lazy lurh huh.

JAPAN TRIP
ahhaha. it was greaaaat. the weather was WHOOOTS, i luurve it! (: now singapore is like sahara to me. horrible. ahahha. the tour guide is FARNIEEE. he looks exactly like a japanese! with his hitler-like moustache! lol. alrights, i shall not go into details, will bore you guys out. mount fugi is kinda disappointment cuz we cudnt get up to th 5th station! and we can only play a small puddle of snow at th 4th station. hahaha. its sunny up there which is rly rly guud! yeaaapp. universal studio and disneyland are super FUN! hahaha. and bought quite alot of things there. temples there are also quite coool. liek reading fortune etc. hahah. there will always be streets for shopping just near temples! ahhaha. im glad i bought quite alot there cuz they are representative of japanese culture! hahhah. i shall blog more about it when i got th photos from my brother! hahaha. not forgetting, friends that i made during the trip! (: hope we keep in touch through msn! hahah.

DANCE ROD
HAHAH. reached quite early on th 19th. i only slept for4 hrs. hahha. it was quite boring at first. ltr we had buffet and watched the guys dance. lol. it was damn farnieeee! then we practised ours. hahah. i keep forgetting lurhs! piangs. then we watched syf videos! hahha. no graduation video though. yeaaapp, then its our turn to perform. evryone had a guud laugh! lol. they wanted encore! i almost died there. i havent been dancing for months laaaa! lol. but it was really funn! vuz all of us enjoyed it, laughed through lurh. and i think thats th most impt. so next was to walk the red carpet. NOBODY criedd, as in sec4s. HHAHAH. we are maaad lurhs. and thanks yunian for the leaf! hhaha. and to those who told me their leaves rot before they can give me. LOL. thanks anw. somehow, it doesnt feel like rod. th fact that we are leaving havent sink in. thats why im not feeling so nostalgia. but i know when school starts, evrything will be different. everything that we are so used to, so familiar for the past 4 yrs will be gone. hahah. and i guess, only at that time, will i break down and cling onto the memories. dance has been a really important part of my sec sch life. i experienced my most down and up there. my batch has always been something im proud of! we went through so much together, and still we are strong as ever. the bond between us is never going to break. shitous, retard, excos. all of you stay close to my heart!

SHOPPING
with cindy, then later mel. hahah. so we were practically walking into every sports shop. then we saw a new nike baag. ahaha. then it was 159 plus. then i keep brainwashing cindy that its humongous so that she wont buy. HHAHA. she almost strangled me. but we saw the price 119 at another shop, then we got so excited! lol. and we wenta many num shops, to look at, AHEM, bags. LOL. but its like, theres tooo many crews there! most of them are like just standing there doing nth. posing for us to see? lol. they can even attend to each of th customers each and there will still be pple left. hahaha. so we went into those shops and count. LOL. okok, super stuupid. then we wenta delifrance for teabreak! and we realised that theres buffet breakfast at 6.95 bucks! as in jsut bread! lol. we got so excited all over again. then we wenta pacific plaza to look at wallets. then cindy wana buy mine, but i saw another nice one. HAHAH. flowery heart, i know. then i decided to buy that and sell mine to cindy. perfect condition ok! haaaa,\. cindy made a calendar for mel iwth MELINDA 2008. sounds like BEIJING 2008 ya?! LOL. but its nice lurhs ok. and and my shopping stamina is getting baaaad :( HAHA.

OKAYE. thats about all! im looking forward to next week! YAAAAAYYY./ hope evrything goes well! (:

if love is evrything, im left with nothing.

strangers at an instant. both of us were at fault that things turned out this way. now without you, evrything seemed so unfamiliar. yet, shadows of us haunted me in evrything i do. im reminded of you. its getting tougher each day as th memories are becoming raw and sore. the love seemed so distant, like it was never ours. no more messages from you, no more pinching of faces, no more nose to nose, no more ice creams on cold days, no more heart to heart talks, no more hand in hand, no more warmth from your hug. i love you. but your heart doesnt belonged to me anymore.

2007-12-10T16:19:00.000+08:00

i wenta a wedding lunch. my first. despite the really sore throat, bad cough and worst of all, lack of voice. x) it was one of my distant cousin who i nvr ever met. ahhaha. but i love gng to wedding (: though it sounds cliche, but it gives me a greaat feeling. like some sort of peace, hope and joy in th atmosphere. and th wedding video is so SWEET, and better, its their TRUE story. so yeaapp its GREAT. but a BIG turn-off was the way some of th pple treated the waiter/waitresses there. i dunoo, but i personally dun like th feeling of being served upon. cuz im just young, yoounger than the waiters and waitresses. so what if you are rich? it doesnt give u the right to look down on them. yeaaa. and some of my friends are also working in banquets. tough work but yea, hang on, rmb money is rolling in (:

hahha. anw. i love th first dish. SUPERB. and with my pathetic 2mp phone cam, i took a really style pic (: no editing or whatsoever! okaaye. here :

sadly, th spring roll and fried stuffs worsen my throat and cough :( BUMMER.

anw, my brother drove his gf's car and took us to parkway. and we saw this sweet lil gurl who looks very korean. HHAHA. we kept looking at her and she ran away crying to find her mum who was queuing up for food! lol. DO I LOOK SO INTIMIDATING?! hahha. ok, it turns out that she wanted to poo. so being nice, i offered to guard their seats. heh. yepp, then as we were gng home, something horrible happened on th road. a taxi driver HALTED suddenly on th road. apparently th driver was trying to stop another car from going past. and so they played chase on th ROAD! goosshh, do u know how many vehicles were affected! and its like so damn dangerous. totally brainless laaa!!!!!

okaye. 3 days more before im flying to japan. tell me what u guys want okaaye (: i will be freezing there. owells. i dun like th thought of me covering up like some HUGEEE BEAR, ok, imagine and LOL. HHAHAH. till here people. LAST PICTURE!

no one deserved to spend the christmas night alone.

2007-12-07T10:43:00.000+08:00

IM LIKE POSTING FINALLY. a few things.

1) i got my W910 bloody red. its guud (: except for th keypad which is giving me a baad time. and th sony ericsson media manager lags mi stuupid comp. but ive got all nokia songs :D

2) im SICK. runny nose and a really sore throat. and yeaapp my huge ulcer which phoon said was mutated cuz it didnt disppear after putting watermelon frost. HHAHA. how am i gona drag myself out ltr? pfft.

3) phoon ong and i wenta mind's cafe. it was super fun. we laughed liek hell. esp th telepath game. i took out the word "TIRE" and both of them wrote CAR. goooossshhh. we were laughing like maaad kids. we then played simpsons mona lisa and mastermind. 4hrs passed real fast laaa! LOL. and th whole place is so so noisy. first time we aint the noisiest! (: had a reaally fun time laa. stomach exercise! and we wenta farm mart too! lol. feed goats and rabbits (: i didnt dare feed th goats!!!! they are super agitated! phoon is brave laaa (:

4) im addicted to inconsolable! i kept refreshing retard's blog! HAHAHA. her counter is jumping like craazzy.

5) watched antm cycle 9. oh man. finally bianca is outta the way. HAHHA. top 3 is SUPERB. chantal is reaallly preeeetty. jenah has THAT face. saleisha is greeeaat :D

6) I MISS PHOON MEITING. korea must be freezing yeaaa. hahha. i think i will die in japan then! enjoy urself laaa (:

till here. im dying alr. damn xin ku. :( MUST GET WELL SOON LAAA.

2007-12-01T19:54:00.000+08:00

HEEEYYYY. okok. im stinky, exhuasted, hungry.
tsktsk. bad combi you see. so anw, today was 6g gathering.
watched tattoist. like EEEWWWW :( me dun like laaa.
but i still watch it till th end. i figured out after grudge 2 that ive to watch in order not to freak myself out ltr.
my 2nd NC 16 moviee. nooobie. (:

wenta queensway ytdy. bought th nicest fbts!!! aaahhh. im so excited to wear.
i shall wear it on tues okaaye!
hahha. yeaaapp walk arnd like hell.
bought lots of stuffs. my sister oso.
th shoes i bought has arch, which is to support my irritating flat foot.
but i know it will hurt, though its supposed to relieve some weight from my foot.
aarrgghhh.

im so going to stay hm tmr. im like going out evryday. bad.
but im spending quite little.
hahah. im used to skipping lunch now. quite horrible i know. but i can live without eating (:

CHRISTMAS IN LESS THAN A MTH.
and i dun feel excited at all. but i lurve orchard lightings okaaye.

it has been a long time since i felt this.
the feeling of disappointment and a teeny wheeny bit of hopelessness.
its like every small bit of thing can make me break down in tears.
oh hell. no, i dun feel guud at all.
and i know i will be homesick when im in japan :(
screw my heart and head.
OHLALA.

till here. boring post i know.
and and I MISS MELINDA HOE SI EN.
hope she buys stuffs in thailand and my tees too! YAAAYY.

and chenying flew off today too.
we'll head out when u comes back okaaye!

and ONG YUJIE is coming back today! :DD

2007-11-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

okaye. its so rare to have me blogging at tis time. im like supposed to be asleep by now. im sleeping like 9hrs each day. and i think its very very qiang. and i always wake up with 6 new msges. hahah. moqi was like "EHHHH. WHY YOU SLEEP SO EARLY ONE?" aiyaaa, nine oclk show is stuupid so yeah, my bro needa use the comp. might as well go have my beauty sleep eh?

actually im not really in th mood to blog. but anw, BRIDGING WAS FUN TODAY. BEE MOVIE WAS NICE TODAY. LAUGHING LIKE MAD WITH PHOON WAS UNBELIEVABLE!

have been watching 舞动全城！kinda hooked on to it. me and my mum gave up th 7oclk show. cuz the ending was really really lame. i almost died when i read it on magazine. like wthh. waste my time lurh. -.- anw i has been hooked on many shows. and yeppp. waiting for e zuo ju 2! AAAHHHH :D

im gona get W580i!!!! i mean i rly hope to get. lousy m1 shops lurh! told me theres no stock ISLANDWIDE. my foot. i asked a m1 shop at the cathay today and th person there say they still have 2 left. AND ITS TH GRAY AND BLUE ONE. but you know what, as i was getting real excited abt the phone and all, my dad is alr on th plane and wun be back until next week!!!! rarrr. means i wun get my phone laaaa :( and by th time he gets back, it will alr be gone with th wind.

and i suddenly want to run to eat some dishes from hongkong cafe! ooohhh. random.

shall end here. but shall reply tags first!

CHEEYEW. bright light?! LOL. thats very very farnie.
JUSTINE. yaaay. luurves. shall meet up rly soon okok! (:
SHANA. gosh. i see that picture it looks like im more retarded. craaappp. shall go take one that u are more retarded dd!
RUIQI. HELLOO. im not lan duo okaye. just no mood to blog. and ive been busy with SHOOOPPING. hahha. envious eh?
JASPER. nice yeaaa. lol.
MEL. waaah. 24 nov. historical date laaaa. like u only tag once in a decade? anw, thanks alot for today gurl. nice pictures right?!
LITING. i dun have ur url laaaa. hahha. blur gurl. and of course can link me laaa. shall link u back when u tell me ur url ((:

DOWN DOWN DOWN.

2007-11-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

dance today was greaaat (: it feels guud to be back.
buuuut im not dancing and i freaking wana dance!
as in just anyhow dance. hahah

we wenta comp lab to watch syf dvds. hahah.
i think jc dance is cooool. but its like, its damn hiong.
hahah. anw i dun even know i can make it or not. HHAHA.

and yeaaa. im feeling dumb cuz i actually regret ALOT for not choosing vj.
i cudnt convince myself cuz i really feel the pull to go there.
but hell, if i dun get into a better jc, i cun get a scholarship and i will definitely regret that.
contradictions. if i get my original score i wont have to fret so much and go to vj straight.
RARRRR.

and 6g pple, lets meet up really really soon okaye!
tell me on my tagboard when are u pple free ok!
then maybe we can work sth out (:

im really tired pple. sorriee. shall update some other time ya.

and to dancers, ENJOY THE DANCE LAAA [:

im just feeling betrayed, cheated, stuupid. u kept saying things that make me feel that im in the wrong. but now u have done sth make me so disappointed. such an irony. when i received the call from your mum i was so afraid that sth happened to u and ur dad. and when she finished her rantings, im just dazed. you gave a whole bunch of excuses and u know even that it doesnt make a difference. things just wont go the way we expected. maybe i wasnt a perfect gurl and didnt put all my heart and soul into this relationship. i kinda know this time, we are gona be apart for real.

2007-11-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

OKAAYEE. heres grad night pictures (:
i just pick some to post! :D

thats the six who attended prom (:
HUIYU! me, ziqin,melinda, justine
MUNTING!
at hollywoods secrets. melinda, me, cindy, peiyng.
looves (:
with MR CHOW. [:
xinyue, wengmaan, retard, hitler ho, me! HITLER HO! WHY CLOSE YOUR EYES!
hand in hand [:
(clockwise) me, rebecca, retard, audrey, ivy. DANCERS (:
401 gurls.
401 guys.
BRIGHTY KHO.
me, wenhang, justine.
EVOONN with JUSTINE.
RETARDS EVER (:
melinda, justine, yifang, chuihan! :D
me and wenhang (:
WEIJIE AND CHAIRMAN LETTS.
HOHO. theodore is short!!! hahah. we made him do that actually (:
ARTISTIC yeaa. mirror!

they look so glam! (x
i luurve this pic! hahah
SMILLEEE ((:

okaaye. i have spastic shots! HHAHHA. so un-glam, but i lurve it! YAAAAY.

okaye. thats so typical of me and ong! YAAAY.
AHHAH. the stark difference betwn the left two and right two. LOL.
OKAYE. this is the ultimate. LOL.
pouts. ACT CUTE LA.

YAAAY. actually i have more. but its so tiring to post evrything i guess. hahah till here (:

2007-11-17T11:31:00.000+08:00

i shall not post on prom night first. since i havent get enough pictures.
but yeaaap, i think it was not as fun as what i expected it to be.
but still, i enjoyed myself, and with great companies too!

the food wasnt that bad, but i didnt eat till my hearts' content.
hahah. ended up starving at ziqin's place.
played cards and melinda was wincing for the whole time.
cuz she was partially blind without contacts and she wanted to sleep.
LOL.cindy was angry with us, cuz we keep disturbing her
she was th first to sleeeppp laa! ahahha. that busy babysitter! :D

and wenhang used cards to predict my future!
im gona be like really rich with a greaaat career.
but my love life is gona be a sad case and health izzen that guud too.
BOOOOO. im gona die alone, maybe with all my money beside me.
imagine that scene! HAHHA
and i bet th TWO KIDNAPPERS out there are alr preparing to kidnap me before i die.
so i may not have money beside me either. whahah. -.-

we slept at arnd 4. and woke up at arnd 6. i heard ziqin's dad leave for work.
then cindy came to wake me up.
and yeaahh, i forgot to mention i was wearing moqi's jersey th whole time! LOL.
all of us were whining like maaadd. didnt wana go to school.
and we bridged tilll we were late for our mac breakfast. LOL.

and PEOPLE, i lost my phoneee. OLE. second one in a year.
gosssh. but this time it was stolen.
went sentosa on tuesday with melhoe, cindy and moqi.
yeaaap. the stuuupid guy wenta ripped open my bag and steal my e65.
we saw it in th cctv. but we didnt find th guy.
koufu people are an irritating bunch! not helping and still gossiping and lecturing us.
so diaaaooo.
but island shop people are greaat! :D
yeaaap and th police came. we were like chatting with th police officers.
they are super farniie. then the investigator came.
turns out hes rather comical! LOL.
but yeaaah, many thanks to th four of them who were with me throughout!((:
love ya great detectives! :DD

OKAYE. i will blog again some other day.
and yeappp im getting new phone tonight! rmb to msg me ya?

not forgetting eeyore! COME BACK SOON YOU GET ME. REPLY ME SOON OKAAYE! ive so much to tell you ((:

2007-11-10T13:51:00.000+08:00

hey people (:
sorry for th lack of updates. been busy shopping, sleeping and watching tvee. and also, my bro gota use th comp, so i can only use my fone to blog.

and to my 2 kidnappers, using my fone to surf net is free lurh. cuz im usin wireless! hahah! xD

anw, after my 3 days shopping spree, ive absolutely NOTHING for u gurls to rob lurh! lol.

i tell ya, flats are th most horrible kind of shoes invented! hurts like hell. and ive thrown it away with great contempt. gota go get anth comfortable pair! and ive been diligently trying to "wax" my heels so that it wun kill me during grad nite. owells. ive finally got all my stuffs ready. total spendings? less than 200bucks! hahaha. accomplished eh :D

i waiting for zara's sale!! i wana buy shirts! haha. and my mum is craazy, she ENCOURAGED ME TO BUY A RIVER ISLAND'S SKINNIES. cost a bomb lurh! but th grey skinnies was beautiful! im gona wear it to japan! yaaay!

okaye, those who think that im a great spender now just slap urself! CUZ IM NOT OKAYE! im gng for a job interview next wed. th job is abt advertising dd. i think its not gona be easy though. but i srsly need experience and money to survive tis holiday! so yup, we shall see how it goes then.

i was doing my hair that day. clipping like siao as usual. then i manage to pin all my fringe up, cuz i want pimple free! hahah. so not possible. ya, ok. then i was thinking, what if th short strands of hair are loosen? then i realise that evrything we do, we must leave a room for things that might go wrong. like study plan, we wud have to leave a few days blank just in case sth goes haywire and we gota push back evrything. yeaap. so its like, its guud to have a back up plan evrytime. its impossible to be sure that things will be perfect. so its th best to leave sufficient space. for evrything you plan to do, for relationships, friendships, for yourselves.

actually i think you guys duno what im getting at. hahah. it just came to me and i decided to blog it down. heh.

till here! i luurve long posts! yaaay!

one and th half mth away will be a torture for me. i cant celebrate th burfday, christmas and new year. im gona miss u much. sorry, i made u mad. :(

2007-11-06T12:28:00.000+08:00

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can someone take me away? :( tis is th first time i felt myself trembling with anger. i realise, that theres too much unhappiness in me, and its killing me..

2007-11-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

THREE MORE WRITTEN PAPERS TO GO!!! AHHH! im rly rly excited la! but these 3 papers aint easy eh? ss gota do well if not can just jump down die suan lerh! hahah.

english was super scary :x
emaths was alright (:

AND GUESS WHAT?!
our genius chinese tchrs can predict th papers! like gosh, 2 of th passage from th paper came out of exams ya know! and its 2 consecutive ones. so i was like, am i dreaming or what. why am i taking th same paper?! lol. but th qns were different, so yeah. pass hcl! YAY!

wenta layer and thin my hair. hoho. regretted. tsktsk.

so its like throughout th exam period, we were like, we shall go sentosa play tis and that, go ziqin hse play tis and that and so on. totalli motivates me :DD

ytdy was horrible. had a super super horrible headache. blaah. i hate p*****. totalli cnt study. aaahh. so i pigged. hahah.

pfft. my mum dun allow me to join chingay lah. i srsly duno whats on her mind lah! I WANT LA! SO FUN! RAWR.

since ive quite alot of tags, shall reply them here.
ruiqi! haha. thanks for informing. emo elmo gurl, i swear ur brain will go jeebabom someday if u kip thinkimg so much okaye! lol.

ZYDGD! eh? i dun uds leii :x anw, saw ur blog, dislocate ur arm arh? take care ah! (:

shana! yarh! i feel so unwanted! hahah. and join chingay will ya?

i feel so so blessed for evrything you have done to please me. how you change ur sleeping time to suit mine. how you learn to open ur heart and soul to me. how you always appear when i needed you. how you make me feel like im th world's happiest gurl. how you learn to smile more often. through all the worst times, we have held on tight and overcome them. this time wont be an exception. evrything in your life may change drastically, but here, in my heart, nothing will ever change.

2007-10-27T17:22:00.000+08:00

i seriously feel like SCREAMING MY HEAD OFF NOW. and im feeling nasty all over. so yeah, dont try to tell me off after reading tis entry.

i think its th world's farniest joke for them to say such things. i mean, what right do they have to expect me to give lots of money to them when they retire? when they just did not take care of me since young, when they just throw th responsibility of caring for their child to someone else, when they just werent there to share my joy, pain and sorrow. and now, evrything single thing they do, they are hoping in mind that i will repay them doubly next time. and this refers to money matters only. evry single cent they spent on me, on clothes, shoes, tuitions etc., it is not becuz i deserve some pampering as a child of theirs. it is all bcuz they hope that by doing all these, i wud repay them one day by earning tons of money and giving them a guud life. and th most stupid thing is that they dun even want to give me money to study overseas. freak it. and evry insurance policy they buy, its not for me, they expect me to use all these money to pay for th house, their medical fees etc. they have got it all planned out since i dunno when. i even suspect that i was born just to ensure that someone wud be there to provide them with money when they grow old. gosh. i know, its only right for me to take guud care of them, and i will do it. but do they have to expect so much in return? i mean, shudnt parents just give evrything to their child selflessly, wanting only th best out of th child and nth more?

sometimes i do miss them alot. i have always been wondering if they didnt just put me at my nanny's place, will things be better? but im sure, i have grown up to become a guud person under my nanny's guidance. but theres always sth missing in my life. and it always upset me a whole lot when i feels like i dont belong anywhere.

i have no idea where my future lies. im just passing through day by day. im just contented with th joy and laughter surrounding me. oh man, damn emo.

2007-10-20T18:01:00.000+08:00

GOOOOSSSHHH. I AM SO SO SO TIRED OF STUDYING. SHIT MAN. FOUR MORE WEEKS AND ITS SHOP, SUN, SLEEP. OMG, I CANT WAIT!!!! HISTORY GOT ME REALLY REALLY MAD, THATS WHY IM TYPING IN CAPS NOW. BLAAAAHHHH.... I WANT IT TO BE OVER SOON. LIKE A BLINK OF EYE. PFFTTS.

anw, my sista was super farniee.
sis: hey jie, can u dont be such a bimbo?
(i was doing my stuffs and she ran into the room to tell me -.-)
me: 0.o
(then she wenta take a dict to find the meaning, she thought it was sth like not stupid act stupid kinda thing)
dict: "attractive but stupid"
me: HAHHAHHA. YOU SAID IM ATTRACTIVE. OMG. ITS LIKE ONCE IN A BLUE MOON.
sis: 苦笑..

okaye.. she stayed home tis whole week, my only source of entertainment. we played water fight ytdy. HAHHAHA.

MY BRAIN IS TOO SATURATED! I KNOW I HAVE MUCH MORE THINGS TO BLOG ABOUT. IM NOT GOING ON HIATUS, SINCE IVE GOTA BLOG TO RELIEVE STRESS. AND YEAH, WE ARE TAKING EXAMS IN THE HALL. SO MUCH FOR PREPARATION DURING PRELIMS. IM SO GONA LIKE FREEZZEEE THERE.

I WAS TELLING PHOON THAT IM LIKE A NUN IN A MONASTARY, PRAYING EVRYDAY THAT OS CAN BE OVER SOON. IM LIKE STUCK AT HOME WHILE THE WHOLE WORLD IS OUT HAVING FUN. GOSH, I SO HATE THAT FEELING.

my brother was FARNIIIEE. he went choosing flats. then he found one quite cheap. then he told my mum. then its like the block had a murder case before, the du yan long case if you rmb. so yarrhh, they were like feng diao!! HAHHAHA.

okaaye till here. u can see my change of mood throughout the post. i swear im gng bonkers like very soon. :DDD

Let the world stop turnin'
Let the sun stop burnin'
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you

2007-10-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

i have no idea why i felt this way. i know i shudnt. rly, but why cant you just tell me what happened? you always hear me out when i was upset, but why dun u give me a chance to listen to ur woes? i can see th sadness in your eyes, and th smile u gave to me seemed so forceful. it worries me to see u like this.. i didnt bring tis up cuz i din wana spoil th day. i thot u wud tell me after a day or two, but u didnt. and i kept thinking of th worst. so i just gota blog it down here to vent it all out. since tis matter is making me real hard to concentrate. urgh.

2007-10-09T11:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVRYBODY! so as not to let ms shana tan be too delightful to always see her name, ive decided to post! LOL xD

and shana! ive seen th counter of yours. imagine 50 visits to ur blog a day and to see th HIATUS TILL NOV 13TH. horrible gurl. hahahah.

so it kinda feels like th whole world finish their exams and are out having a hellueva fun time. poor people like me just stuck at hm, trying to force myself to love books. uuurrgghh.

and people like dreadful dennis just have to sms sth like "my promos are over!! wana have gathering at my place? " rawr. i almost vomitted blood. gathering my foot, though it hasbeen a long time since i met up with these bunch of cousins. after os i promise!

and i just had a row with my mum. maybe its better. finally she wun kip pestering when i study. aiyaa. i just have to kip my mouth shut since she owaes say i tok rubbish. aahh.

till here! mug hard people, eat mre chocs! :D

464779685366384546!

2007-09-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA. SHANA TAN. YOU HAVE TO DO MINE ALSO OKAAYE.

1. relationship with SHANA :
> RETARDS, dancers, fellow exco members.

2. five impressions about SHANA :
> uh, skinny, smooth processor (LOL), guai lan, biiig eyes, curly hair.

3. most memorable thing that SHANA has done to me:
> hmmm. lets see. theres quite alot! :D but most memorable... she encouraged me alot during syf period.

4. most memorable words that SHANA has said to me:
> I FORGOT =x hahahha.

5. if SHANA becomes my enemy:
> thats quite impossible. she luurves me too much la.

6. overall impression of SHANA:
> GUAI LAN. hopelessly retarded. LOL

Now, it's about yourself,

7. how do you think people around you feel about you:
> noisy, craazy, talkative, friendly, easy going.

8. characteristics i love about myself:
> optimistic, keesiao.

9. characteristics i hate about myself:
> insensitive. blaaah.

10. ideal person you want to be:
> to be someone that can bring joy to evryone and be true to herself (:

shana, cheeyew, huiyu, rebecca shall be the next pple to do this test. change SHANA to GRACE will do :DD

prelims, aaaahhhh, shant talk abt it. (:

have been bridging these days. and today was the HIGHEST. horrrriiibbbllleeee. me and moqi almost jump down the building. LOL> its was super farnieee. [:

okaaaye. im gng out this weekend! yaaaay. shall be guai and do my hwk now.

stuuuupid zhen mian ask us to stay back and release us. -.-
im NOT THAT FREE LA AUNTIE.

till here! bye bye.

i love waking up with ur sms greeting me.
it owaes make a greeaaat start for my day.
no matter how bad my day might be, ur daily dosage of words kept me going.
at the end of the day, a "good-night" from you just seem to help me put my troubles aside.
and when i felt myself grinning thinking of you and your messages, im almost sure that im wonderfully in love.

2007-09-20T17:00:00.000+08:00

i was reading chenying's blog.
and she mentioned that shes graduating soon.
and yeaa, it kinda set me thinking.
like in 2 or 3 weeks, we are ALL graduating.
not that i love nanhua to bits and pieces.
on the contrary, i never love it.
just that people there just make my 4 years there seem so wonderful.

i hate how strict the rules are. and i can nvr tell you what the 6As are.
i hate how the council works.
i hate the TIE PLAITS rule which make us look like complete idiots outside.
i hate how limited canteen food is. esp when mi choc pocky vanished.
i hate how far the school is from my house (ok, i have myself to blame for this)
i hate how much stress the school gives
i hate how the school did not belong to us afterall.

but there are much more stuffs that make me love going to school.
and i guess, these stuffs really did cover up all those pathetic stuffs i mentioned above.

DANCE, makes up one HUGE part of my time in nan hua. i cannot forget how i came into dance with a mindset that its gona be a boring 4years like those times in primary school. but NOPE, i was fortunately wrong. :D i guess evry person in dance changed me and some even made a great impact on me. LAOSHI definitely did. i guess anyone who was taught by him or knew him in any way held him in the highest respect. i did learnt alot. i can nvr imagine dance without him. and i guess 10 years or even 20, 30 years down the road, i will never forget him. cause he taught me how to work as one big group and enjoy every moment of being together, how things may go wrong sometimes and theres always a solution, how awards dont matter and that spirit is what that bring us to where we are. (: besides laoshi, theres still seniors! hahha. i cannot help but laugh when i thought of how they were like us in the past, sec4s, preparing for olvls. and at that time, i though they were liek so big, so sensible and crazy at times. and now im a sec4 miself! though many seniors haf moved on, but the nhds bond still remains and linked us tgt.
and not forgetting, my WONDERFUL BATCH. i dunoo. im always very very proud of us. not just because the sec3 dance. but theres alot of things that we shared. though we onli got closer during sec3s, but national day, nkf and so many more can just make up all those sec1 and sec2 times. hahah. and this year's syf! not just the exco, but evryone is trying so very very hard to present the best dances. although laoshi split us up, which was quite unusual, we worked tgt, cheering one another and wishing the best. evrytime we see each other we go "xx days more, so scared la!" or smth. hahah. but im so glad, we went through these all tgt, as a batch, as great friends, as dancers. im sure not one of us willl ever forget all these :DD

CLASS, i dunnoo, when i talk about class, that SEVEN figures just POP out. yeaaah. its like theres so much time we spent tgt! 102 and 202 was spent bullying hb. hahah. and i guess he was traumatised. ahahha. but we had so much fun! with yifang, munting, chuihan and all! esp PIE! mr cheng! hahah. was super fun when we go arnd selling drinks and in the stall like maddies! and how evryone played murderer, and even had giggolos etc etc! ahhaha. we maybe isolated, but hey, we lurve the solace man! (: 301 and 401 wasnt that bad too! cause i met mi beauty! hahah. of course, theres people like borui, leihoi, andaline. but most of the times were laughing and keesiaoing with the five of them. its sad that wenhang and evon cudnt join us, but sometimes they do come over and we play like siaaooo. so anw, i conclude these people are the BEST COMPANY ever. reaaallly. those "YOU ARE HOT CAUSE IM STANDING BESIDE YOU", "MELTING", "FREEZING" cause of gwee's cold jokes. im grateful for gwee's cold jokes that sent me shivering though, and moqi's keesiaoness and also her knowledge of dramas that can allow us to talk non-stop, ziqin's blur and good-natured character that makes her our main suaning person, justine's black humour which is so very unexpected, melhoe's intelligence which helped me through tough chapters and not forgetting her high-pitched voice, as ever. HAHAHA. HIGH-PITCHED! i though of bill gates. LOL. (X

TEACHERS, seriously, good teachers are hard to find. ive seen and heard so many who dont commit. and im really glad ive met teachers who are putting their heart and soul, teaching, helping us and talking to us. i can sense their warmth, their care and concern, their passion, and their desire to see us excel in evry way. mr chow, PAPAPHYSIX! hhaha. mrs tan! maths pro! mdm vidya! sri lanka! mr cheng! nice nice! and the way to make them happie? do well and make them proud! and not forgetting, being a great person in future! ((:

though its only 4years in nh, as compared to yzps, it seemed that this phase of my life is so so impt. if im a genius or prodigy and go straight to jc, i can might as well kill miself! HAHHAH.
but thinking of all these really make me grateful. i cun possibly believe that ive such great times in such a school, such great people in my life, such great impact they had on me.

but now, soon, we will be parting. and now i feel the pain alr. i dunoo. it seems that evryone is going separate ways. it just seems so unreal that evrything is coming to an end. i havent had enough great times! but who knows, maybe a century, we will find ourselves in the same old folks home, and play like how we play now, gossip liek nbdy's business and drive the home's person craaaazzyy. HHHHAHAA. i jsut thought of this, in view of the ageing population. but yeaah, still, treasure the times now. cause evrything may no longer be the same again. but i love all of you people still <3

2007-09-17T11:59:00.000+08:00

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Chorus

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

my oh my. im like super addicted to oldies.
and today's chem paper, mi head kept ringing colin raye's one boy one girl.
AHHHH. and evrytime i hear th song, it will touch mi heart.
i want it for mi wedding song! AAAAHHH. <3

2007-09-08T16:38:00.000+08:00

HAHAH. from mi beloved beauty! time to destresss!

Here are the rules: each blogger must post these rules first. each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselvesbloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER!don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

1. i own a small bolster since im like 4? yeaaah. its dirty, black, but most importantly, it smells of ME. the famous SIANG SIANG. whooots. it tore once, sending cottons in th air, cause of a fight with mi sister. and because of it, i fought with mi mum who attempted to throw away and got a small scar on mi face. interesting eh?

2. i dont live with mi parents. yeeepp.

3. i started dancing since like 4? yarh. and im still so pathetic in chinese dance. hahhah. dance at 4yrs old is just jumping arnd! so it doesnt really count. real fun dancing definitely starts only when im in NHDS (:

4. i like guys who are BOTAK, and with alil goatie. for instance, stanley, ferdinand (8 rawks biiig time!

5. im afraid of attending funerals. even mi own relatives or grandpas. such a loser eh? but the overwhelming depressing atmosphere hanging in th air just give me the creeeps. same goes for accidents, or bloody scenes. so i cant be a doctor! ><

6. im very very prone to getting fat. cause i eat all sorts of things that can lead me to obesity. a day a chocolate is a must. i lurve pasta, icecreams, chicken rice, fried noodles etc. HAHAH. so dun be surprised if u see me stuck at the door one day. HAHHA

7. im a very very lazy gurl who lurves sleeping. though i dun really slp in class, i sleep liek a whole damn lot at home. ((:

8. i have many many friends. but theres only a couple few that i really feel comfortable with. and only those few who knows me well enough. and im really really contented. cause they would always appear at the right time and give me the advice and encouragment that i needed the most. thankew :D

8people. quite tough since not many people are blogging?

lets see.
shana
ivysoh
ruiqi
rebecca
beverly

aaah. i cannot think of anyone anymore!
its okaye to blog after prelims though! hahaha.

2007-09-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

TAADDAAA :D

its midweek alr! and ive studied. and did papers. and slept. and eaten. and watched vcds. and went out for bbq!

BORING. so its nth FUN FUN FUN. it shud be 烦烦烦!

lame shit. LOL.

and my study plan failed. BLAAAAH.
im still stuck with history!
but i luurve history! MAN. open ur tb to the chpt on conferences.
theres the super handsome man named ROOSEVELT! goooossh.
hhahha. although hes dying, he looks damn shuai in the pic.
i kept turning to that pg when i studied! lol.

so yeaaah. MUG HARD EVRYONE. its like NEXT MONDAY. HOHO.

hope it will be over soon! then i will go shopping and tanning! WHOOOOTS.

OHYES. IM GOING JAPAN TIS DECEMBER! like im so excited!
imagine the food, weather, shopping, disneyland, universal studio, skiing, mt fuji, bullet train!
WHOOOTS. letdown is, im travelling japan airlines where theres no tvee. i will just entertain miself with books. NOVELS pls. and i hope mi japanese can be put to great use when i bargain for stuffs or order greaat food like sushi and sashimi! hahhaha!

OKAAAYE. that will be after Os.
groans. seems like an eternity till Os are over. RAAAAWRRR/

all these aside, main point today is that i haf the sudden urge to dance.
GREAAT. i miss dance, whu doesnt?
i mean sept hols are owaes gng back to school to dance la!
whole day in school danicng, playing, chatting!
good old days.
now im like inactive at home, sitting down to study and walking arnd to grab foood to eat.
biiig contrast.

owells. i shall stop ranting. SHUDDUP.
ZIIIIIPPP. (:

2007-09-01T13:24:00.000+08:00

HEEELLLOO (:

i shall blog! :D

last week was hectic.
wake up evryday feeling horrible, and japanese flying across in mi brain.
blaaah. i studied la!
but i tink i will still flunk. so hopeless :x
left school early and headed bishan for 3 days straight for exams.
then evrytime i reach home i will be so drained and sleep before time strikes 10.
and thurday was paper 1.
blaaaah. i hope mi english compo is drastic enough.
i just haf a feeling it izzen so. BOO.
chinese was as usual boring.
bao zhang bao dao makes me yawn!
GIVE ME A PASS MAN! :D

but thursday was fun though.
cause it was practically no lesson the whole day! WHEEE.
and theres the changing of classrooms!
CHAOS CHAOS CHAOS.
blim said we turned the school into a ZOOO. LOL.
where got zoo with animals taking books, runnign arnd and screaming?!
but anw, nice junjie and yongchang took the trolley and we stack books there and they went by the lift.
THANKEW!
so it was THAT chaotic.
and those sec1s are like so -.-
its either they live in hdb flats below 5th lvl or they are damn rich and live in terraces which have 3 storeys onli.
either way, they acted so 0.o

stayed back in school and asked qns.
yeaaap. and mi mum let me cab home.
and i bought lots of books! MACHO xP

friday, dint go to school. owells.
but i was th first to wish mr chow! HAHAH (:
at 6 in the morning.
went out with chenying and shujun to vivo for dinner! (:
shujun was late as usual.
so me and chenying talked and talked.
so its like all of us are aiming vj.
HHAHA. YZPS REUNION we call it.
cause andrew zee and jiaxin aiming for vj too!
and chenying was so craaazzy! she was liek telling us she had already imagined herself in vj uni!
hahah. but it was motivating!

PRELIMS in dunoo how many days.
GOSH. im still not panicking yet. blaaaah :(
i hope the prelims wun kill me and demoralise me.

ive alr thought of what to buy for mr chow (:
GENIUSY GRACE.

till here! takkaire evryone!

please dont doubt how true mi feelings are.
cause it will really leave a scar.
if you cannot wait and hold on for a while more,
then leave and not turn back anymore.
cause leaving is a one way street to me.

sometimes i miss you so much that mi mind stop working, mi heart stop beating, and my tears kept falling.

2007-08-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

just finished jodi picoult's picture perfect.
all i can say, is that the ending wasnt what ive hoped for.
ahhah. yeeaap. theres so many things arnd that are not gona go th way we had expected right?

yesterday was island creamery and madjack with wenhang.
(:
th fish and chip and sundae was heavenly. HAHHA. gooossh.
and we talked..
been so loong eh?
and i was complaining how bio is so so sucking me dry.
even before i start to study for it.
-.-

and once again, i was amazed at myself.
i slept through, 12 hrs. hoho.
nono. im not gona blame th weather, cause i just wanted alot alot to sleep
:pp

im doing physics now.
and without mi calculator! waaah.
mi things go missing like constantly nowadays.
i wish i could go, "accio calculator!"

i dunoo. maybe my stresses for prelims came in weird forms.
its not like i will get depressed, or frightened or etc etc.
i just had weird dreams, and start to be more sensitive of things arnd me.
uuuurrgghh.
sometimes when im trying to mug alone in my room, mi mind will start to wander.
owells. and i will haf to haf great determination to will my mind back to the book in frnt of me.
oh, im so so grateful ive this will.
if not i think i will just stare blankly for a long long time.
not that ive dozens of things to think abt.
not that i conjured these thoughts to mi mind.
they just crept into mi mind, and send it whirling like mad.
and once or twice, i get so tired and just went to sleep.
when morning comes, im in a joyous mood once again.

seriously, i dunoo if its a guud thing or not.
i mean to forget abt bad stuffs and just take evryday as a new day.
nto that its impossible, cause it works to a certain extent for me.
but i kinda wondered evry now and then, am i just burying all those problems?
and when things happen at home again, the pain was as raw as ever.
and i will just take some time before it goes away.
ive no idea if it heals.

im so numb, and i felt that i cud manage all these myself.
cause im able to forget easily.
so im grown tired of speaking of these problems to anyone, not even you.
cause i know its not gona help.
nothing will.

its all abt keeping a distance i guess.
cause if ure not that attached to things, things wun be screwed.
distance does not mean no love, no trust.
it just means, not too much.
it just applies to all relationships
though ive more confidence in friendships, till the day i lose heart.
yes perhaps it will be soon.

i know im hurting you, as much as the hurt i felt inside me. as you comforted me with soothing words, and ran ur fingers down the trickle of my tears, i felt my insides hum.
strange, your fingers felt cold. and i realised, how much it upset you as well.

2007-08-13T19:19:00.000+08:00

yes yes. i shud post. HHAHHA.
ive been opening this CREATE POST page for several times.
and i just clerly forgot abt posting.
goosh. sixteen is not THAT old right?

oral is quite screwed today.
aye, i just dun haf tong nian, happy?
uuurggghhh.
and mi examiner is so 0.O
owells. pray hard for me.

saturday was GREAAT.
went out and headed for bugis.
shopped and bought heels (:
and we bought SPONGEBOB AND PATRICK!
i got th spongebob while patrick was taken by _.
HAHHAH. we were singing the songs as we walked down parco.
lol. xiasway.
went pasta to eat and we had half aglio olio and chicken bolognese.
tasted weird though :x
walked arnd and i was so happie to see espirit! greaat clothes. but they cost a bomb!
lol. and they look nice on me too! :D
hand arnd and i bought phoon's present liek FINALLY.
glad she lurved it. PURE WHITE, GUAN YIN la. (x
and _ introduced me to a desert shop named " ji de chi"
at the back alley opp bugis.
ahahha. superb! _ ate mango with grapefruit, while i had almond.
kinda regretted it, cuase the mango thing was superb la!
so I KOPED ALOT. hee.

yeaaap. and we toked alot there. hahha.
after that i was so tried. so decided to cab home.
and _ has to go home alone. :p

PICTURES OF COUSINS!

those childlike innocence! goosh.
many many lurrves.

and HAPPIE BLEATED BURFDAY CASUARINE! <3s

2007-08-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

DANCE ELECTION. im freaking pissed off.
i nvr felt miself burning liek that before.
serious. HOW COULD THEY?!
THEY successfully messed up evrything.
and i make sure that DONT get they want.
since dance is owaes so OKAYE without them,
i felt so shiitty when they come and put their finger in evry pie.
AHHHH. serious la.

but still, i really really hope the new exco will prove themselves to be capable.
show them girl's power! [:

remember, dance is not only about me, myself and i.
its we, us, all. yes. never ever only think for urself (like THEY did).
look at the whole picture and decide whats best.
no one will ever blame you, if you take th initiative and did smth for the sake of dance.
JIAYOOOU :DD

on a brighter note, we are officially the EX-es. HAHHHA.
the times we had meetings in schools and library, syfs, extra pracs, and many many more.
they were just wonderful.
sometimes, i will get so disheartened by ahem, cause apparently she thinks im the onli one against her. (as if i care)
there will owaes be pple to hear me rant and curse with me.
when there are major problems, we sat down and solve.
though its not owaes ALL OF US, im still happie enuff.
cause i know we haf been working hard for dance.
THANKEW GUYS AND GURLS.
though ups and downs.
through joy and tears.
and with utmost reluctance, we became the EX-es.

SERIOUS OKAYE. though most of us are um-chioing.
EX-zuxi, EX-discipline, EX-props, EX-vicechair,
EX-secretary, EX-publicity, EX-costume.
WE RAWK <3

NOTICE. we had all our shirts tucked in. GREAT.

you never kew how amazing you can be,
when u rush out from class to meet me cause you know im not feeling too guud,
when u sat there talking lame jokes cause you know i need some time to chill,
when u look into mi eyes and make me tears roll down immediately,
and when u know crying is an embarrassing thing for me, you looked away.
thank goodness you are here with me today.

2007-08-04T11:25:00.000+08:00

a few things..

1) WE ARE FINISHING RELATIVE VELOCITY! :DD
GOSH. but finishing it is one thing, really understanding it is another.
i hope i do. if not i will just give up the whole damn chpt.
><

2) HUIYU CLAIMS THAT IM GETTING FATTER. AND ITS ALLL HER FAULT. whaah. cause ive been eating ALOT in class. frosties, koko crunch, chocs, sweets! HAHHA. and liwen kips saying always see me chomping sth in class. owell, gota kip miself awake right? so our place is like gona be infested with ants, bugs.. pathetic. rubbish dump truly. AHHAH

3) im currently watching some hongkong show again! WHOOTS. ITS ADDICTIVE! RAWR. im so dead. prelims is like so near la. and ive gota be here stuck on a show. tsk.

4) next tues is dance election. yeeaaap. choose well people. leaders are very impt for us. stepping down, ahhaa. mixture of feelings. other than that, next tues will oso be FUNNNESS. looking forward [:

5) im still contemplating whether to skip sch next wed. kinda waste of time la. considering i take much time to go to and return from school. BUT. theres this service award thing. should i give it a miss? urrgghhh.

6) jesse lim is SO FARNIEEE. gosh. she was trying, i mean really trying hard, to punish theodore's friend for throwing chapteh into class to return to theodore. but she ended bursting into fits of laughters. horrible. and our whole class laughed with her. wahaha. but sometimes she gets me really really mad. HA.

7) fell asleep while smsing. its becuming like a norm. and its owaes me who go snoring away first. and wake up in th middle of the night with unreplied msges. HA. after half hour, u shud go to slp too. [:

8) and sorry pple. im sometimes not in the best mood. i duno whats gotten into me. i hope it goes quickly. yes. something seems to be bugging me but i dunoo what. BLAH

9) im down with stuupid headache again. i refused to haf panadol. and i cun get to sleep last night. shucks. should i or should i not take panadols? horrible.

10) HE'S HOT.

say i have a unique taste. WHOOOOTS.

2007-07-27T20:00:00.000+08:00

REPLIES (:

CHEEYEW aka HITLER HO! HELLOO. you jiayou too! nj right! go go go! life maybe so frigging boring now, but i guess evrything will be worth it! :DD

SHUJUN! HEELLLOO. din hear from u for a month already! ooohhh. nvm, work hard and we will get there TOGETHER. many many luurves :D

IM SO SICK OF THESE,
I CUN FIGURE OUT WHATS MY PROBLEM,
AND IM TIRED OF GIVING,
AND KNOWING YOU OWAES TOOK ME FOR GRANTED.

love is smth that we shared, right?

2007-07-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

SO.
evryones craaazy over POTTY. hahah.
me included!
i spent precious weekend finish reading it.
HAHHA. and pls, its slow alr.
cindy and melinda toook just one day!
:DD

though the ending is kinda happy ever after and cheesy,
but hey, i wudnt want to cry my eyes out arh.
if harry died that is.

fine, i shall stop spoiling the fun here.
shuddup :x

life has been boring.
and as what i was telling phoon, food is th onli thing im looking forward evryday.
its madness,
when teachers come in with a whole stack of papers.
liek almost for evry period.
guess i will get used to it v v soon.

relative velocity has been driving me insane.
RAWR.
requires plenty of logic which i DONT HAF. sad to say.
so like when im walking at a veh fast speed, and anth walking at a slower speed, i will see the other person as walking the other direction?!
GOOOSH.
o.O

end of post!

replies to tag:
SHANNEH! fly fly fly. ahhah
PHOON! yaaaay [: u dont have to say, i know!
ZHUO' ER! rare visitor! hahah. didnt know u know abt my blog! yeaap! THANKEW(: you too!
ONG! GHIM MOH :D hahaha. take guud care ya!
YANYAN! yes. if u believe. (:
BEVERLY! HEEELLLOO. i wana tag urs but i cudnt. just wana tell you that i totalli agree on ur post on the back gate stuffs. totalli set me on fire lurhs. PFFT. thank goodness its our last freaking year. LALA [:

AND AND. PIERRE PNG IS THE LOVE. WHOOTS.

2007-07-17T19:06:00.000+08:00

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

ive never doubted that im not blessed.
in terms of meeting great friends and forging wonderful friendships.
these friends just came by and made such a great impact in my life.
ive always been thankful that at evry point of my life,
when im down and out and trying to figure out
why has my life gone upside down,
friends will always be there.
and never once, never ever, they left me alone and cold.
neither have they harm me.

ive owaes thought im blessed with great friends.
till i met this particular person.
we werent as simple as friends initially.
but things went on and eventually we decided to put the past beind us and became friends.
from time to time, we wud ask abt hows life gng on and stuffs.
i was kinda glad that we haf so much in common.
but ive heard things, and seen things that make me lose heart.
ive warned you about these stuffs once.
and you claimed you did listen and i believed.
but ure still a jerk/ bastard through and through.
hopeless.

2007-07-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

I have often dreamed, of a far off place
Where a hero’s welcome, would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying, this is where I’m meant to be
I’ll be there someday, I can go the distance
I will find my way, if I can be strong
I know ev’ry mile, will be worth my while
When I go the distance, I’ll be right where I belong
Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime, but somehow I’ll see it through
And I won’t look back, I can go the distance
And I’ll stay on track, no, I won’t accept defeat
It’s an uphill slope, but I won’t lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero’s strength is measured by his heart
Like a shooting star, I will go the distance
I will search the world, I will face its’ harms
I don’t care how far, I can go the distance
Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in your arms
I will search the world, I will face it’s harms
Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in your arms

- go the distance by michael bolton

this song kinda bring me back to the childhood memories.
where there will always be endless cartoons waitiing for me.

"for a true hero isn't measured by the size if his strength, but by the strength of his heart"--zeus
:DD

scroll down people and click on the video to hear tis song. its really SUPERB okaye!

anw. oral is quite screwed lurhs. mi reading aloud was the worse.
at least picture was okaye! i duunnoo. see if ms koh likes me or not.

huiyu has been baking cookies!
hahah. okaye, me and bright koh benefits the most!
its really yummy! LOL.
evrytime i opened the box, borui will turned to me and say the smell is owaes so strong. HA.

YAAAAYYY :D
im watching potty on monday with jus and moqi~
i cun wait! and saturday too!
the last book will be out!
ahhaa. im so gona spend mi whole weekend trying to finish the book!
but last book eh? im feeling a lil nostalgia abt it.
like the story is ending. blaaaah.

till here! [:

2007-07-08T09:13:00.000+08:00

i didnt get to send her through her last journey of life.
and its kinda disturbing to know that shes just gone forever.
rest in peace auntie.

on a brighter note, we had dinner last night! :DD
wenhang's treat and all of us went except ziqin and evon.
yeaaapp. been so loonngg we actually meet up and have dinner and talk.
the food there were superb! but i guessed it cost a bomb!
dint know jap food has that much varieties eh!
and we got the whole room to ourselves :DD
photos with moqi!
we sat there and talked. HAHHA.
after that roamed arnd and i cabbed home.
lucky mi mum wenta sleep alr. if not she wil just scream again!

THANKEW WENHANG (:

seriously. i havent been feeling guud for a long long time.
and i realised laughter are just short-lived.
and joy are the one that can stay longer.
and this joy, ive gota go look for it myself.
yeaaapp.

sometimes it just pricks me. when i think of those stuffs.
no, i dont feel that the world is hopeless and life is so meaningless.
narh. cause i believe evryone's life has a story.
some stories could be bedtime story, soothes the soul, too guud to be true.
some stories could be horror story, hair-standing, nerve-wrecking.
mine? i wud like mine to be some kinda mystery story.
where evry chapter of my life, i meet different people, i discover different stuffs.
and all these are pieces of puzzle of my life.
i believe that evryone whom i met before shaped me into what i am today, whether positively or negatively.
and mystery stories oftern haf a wonderful ending although theres times where the case seem to be at deadlockand the situation looks hopeless.
[:

HAHHAH. i kinda thought of this when _ told me abt stories. hahha.
_would like his story to be some kinda comic.
OKAYE. totalli suits him la! LOL.
yes. great pal i have who pretend to know what im blabbering abt and listens eh?
lol. and almost fall asleep somemore!
thought i dunoo right! LOL.

random post.

2007-07-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

NEW BLOGSKIN :D i think its really really nice! whoots.

havent been posting eh?
HHAHA. cause its alr like 8 more weeks to prelims alr! lol.
or maybe 7. yar yar. im so sick of tchrs reminding us.
just teach lurhs. stop putting pressure on us. ><

yeah. actually ive not much things to blog about.
just that its WENHANG'S BURFDAY TODAY!
:DDDD
and i know she luurves our present ALOT! HAHHAHA.

ive like tons of things waiting for me to do.

im getting too HIGH these days and hit huiyu evrytime some people pissed me off. LOL
poor gurl. but i let her hit me once! shes a shotput-er, mind you. hahhah.

im still going back to dance and wishing so much that i cud dance the new S-C-O-P-E dance. its cuuuttteee. :p

ohyah. ive been guai lan too. esp to PHOOON. u can see her face evrytime i does sth guai lan. OKAYE. fine. my fault. hahaha.

moodswing these days. easily irritated. ive been trying hard to control. yeeaapp. sorry to those whom i flared up at. dun take it too seriously. [:

thats all! HAPPY WEEKENDS!
GWEEE! its 07/07/07 TOMOORRROOW! :D

I can see the love shining in your eyes, and it comes as such a sweet surprise

2007-07-03T17:23:00.000+08:00

when i walked past the void deck of my house todae,
and i did not peer in nor stop to look at the funeral.
cause i know it is my neighbour's.
terminal stage lung cancer when my mum told me. it was just 1wk ago.
she left peacefully, according to her husband.
though i am not tearing or anything while mi mum did, but i guess im saddened too.
when my mum went out and came home late, she will take me in and gave mi some snacks.
when i was young, she allow me to go to her house anytime to watch scv.
there are many many more things..
and now shes gone.
she may not be close to me. but yes, i still feel a part of me missing.

i know i wudnt be able to control mi tears while posting this.
shes only 59! thats far too young.
but as what my mum saes, life is fated.
who you meet, how things gona be, how long you wud live.
everything is predestined.

but no matter what, cherish evrything around you.
cause death do do us apart.

2007-06-22T11:37:00.000+08:00

I REALLY REALLY LURVE THIS SONGS TO BITS!

although i cannot really uds cantonese, im trying to learn.
tis song is about mother's love.
yeeap. listen to it carefully. super touching.
beyond is a really really outstanding hongkong band.
so sad eh.
there are many many of their songs that they composed themselves, and are super touching!

make me fell in lurve with cantonese! :DD

anyway! i found the video of modern alr! HAPPINESS.
heres the link:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=DU1g7T1Eje4

abit not clear. but this will be it, till the dvds are given to us. RAWR ><

2007-06-21T09:02:00.000+08:00

STUUUUPID FONE. its lagging like mad.
im gona send it for servicing fone.
pfft. less than a mth?! 0.o

i cant upload pics!
i have MANY PICS PLS.
:((

TUESDAY:
woke up bright and early and wenta meet huihui, jiaxin and shujun!
hahha. shujun was late AGAIN. kinda expected. hahhaa.
and she became really fair. lol.
talked and ate breakfast.
then we headed for amk hub.
so its like the shops aint opened yet. hahah.
so we were like roaming arnd and trying to peer through those dark dark shops.
lol. yepp. and thanks to shujun! we found jubilee!
and its 5bucks one ticket onli!
super shuang. watched men in white.
then i was trying mi luck to ask the person to start the show earlier since its just the 4 of us.
and the person agreed! HAHAHA.
that show arh.. quite LAME lurhs.
notice, i dun owaes use the word LAME.
so i use it, means its really really LAME. HAHAHAH.

yeaap. then after that i rushed to jap class. ahhah. and im not even the latest!
all of us were so restless. HAHAH.
after that headed to library in search of jolin and borrowed books.
then me and huishan settled at cafe galilee and talked. HAHHA.

after four years, we can still meet up occasionally and talk.
catching up on one anth's lives. hahah.
i think we didnt really change much. [:
thats why we can still click so well.
YAYE :DDD

shujun came back to meet me cause we are gng uk funfair! :DD
we just walked and talked until its time.
hahha. played skyrider which we screamed cause we are afraid of hitting the board. LOL.
so two goons were screaming. LOL.
then when we touched ground, evrything seems to be still spinning.
hhahha. so we were like stumbling evrywhere we go.
damn farnieee...
after that we sat in the ferris wheel.
ahhaha. took pics! but mi lagger fone is slow with the night mode.
so we were like " sitting ferris wheel with u like BU4 DA1 hor"
LOL. then went home!
was duper tiredd.
<3s

YESTERDAE:
was staying home and finishing mi vcds.
OKAYE. shall stop being addicted.
if not i might as well go kill miself.

gng out to study with phoon and ong ltr!
hope i can finish mi work.
haf been procrastinating way too much.
pfft. now im angry with miself.
RAWR. HHAHHA.

AND. i haf weird dreams again!
i dreamt that i was chased by ghost. BLAH.
super dumb. lol.

till here! im gona conquer chinese zuo ye todae.
I HOPE. HAHHA.

When I fall in love, it will be forever. Or I'll never fall in love

When I give my heart, it will be completely. Or I'll never give my heart

2007-06-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

shall continue..

THURSDAY:
was slacking arnd at home and watching countless vcds.
was brooding abt my failed attempt to study when . called.
i got the shock of my life lurhs.
apparently . was so careless and dislocated the arm while rockclimbing.
so being nice and all, i told . to go home and rest.
but . insisted that i shud be the first one to see the cast. HAHAH.
such a stuupid excuse. so yeah.
prepared and met . at clarke quay.
had dinner, it was so comical watching . eat.
lucky, it was left hand. lol.
so talked and roamed arnd the streets.
evrywhere was so brightly lit and the water just reflects evrything.
making the place looks alot brighter.
hahaha. i missed talking (:

FRIDAY:
busy bee was BUSY AGAIN. so yeap.
i stayed home and sleep.
was dead beat after the previous day.
and plus it was raining! :DD
so being stood up on a rainy day izzen that bad after all! wahaha.

SATURDAY:
went for flag day. its tiring once again.
me and moqi walked past 3 markets.
farnie thing is, all the pple looked familiar to us!
like they just went from the first market to the next.
so we were working really hard.
but i was rejected many many times.
kinda disheartened at first. but theres owaes some kind souls out there.
they kinda perked me and yeap i finished mi 200 stickers!
PROUD. EHEHHE.
we were among the first to finish. yeaaapp.
so we went ziqin's hse for bridging session. ahhah.
moqi and i rly rly great pair.
MEI MEI IS SO CUTE! ahhaha.
yep. went home after tat.

and as for todae, AAAAAAAHHHHHH. forget it.
HA.

i waited for an hour half. there was no apologies. u shud haf known that im gona reach home early since i owaes had early dinner with them. and u are calling onli once? and that once was when mi fone was lagging. and u din bother to try agn? it was alr so late. u know i shud be back home no matter what. and when u reached home, u were larfing and telling me how much u enjoyed with my brother, his gf and the family. how do u want me to repond? and this is not the first time. as i was sitting outside, i felt like crying all along. but i didnt. i didnt want u to know how insecure i felt. im not angry, im not sad. im just purely hopeless of the situation. but theres nowhere i cud hide.

2007-06-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

HEELLLOO IM BAACK. WHOOOTS.
i onli haf 10mins to update what im up to these 3 days.
and im gng to watch tvee!!

WEDNESDAY:
DANCE. i managed to sneak out when mi mum went to the market.
ahhaha. chiong to school and waited arnd for retard to finish her lessons.
then all of us wenta eat lunch. HAHHA.
then later, watched retard and wh'd ballet.
then i was sleepy and wenta sleep.
HAHHA. i din hear jeanette they all calling me lurhs.
after that, keesiao six of us, audrey, yinghui, jeanette, retard, ivysoh and me went up the stge to dance.
then we played pepsi cola! and I WON.
looonng legs huh. [:
after that was WATERBOMBING. it wasnt that pathetic at first.
we were just playing safe and stand upstairs to bomb pple.
ahhah. then it was like we started bombing one anth.
JUNHE. ultimate culprit.
got us all so wet! HAHHAH. rawr!
so i was thoroughly wet. and that junhe still din let us off.
RAWR. but nicee cheeyew distracted him by clapping his hands.
and i escaped successfully! YAYE.
borrowed POTAT'oversize 46 shirt. hahhaa. drowned me.
HHAHAH. loooked super comical. but still THANKS [:
we were fanning our butt. super obscene, and laoshi even asked them to see us.
LOL. but it was rly rly fun lurhs! <333s
went home and got scolded.
bawled like a baby. horrible. but i guess it was worth it! :D

SHALL UPDATE LATER. OFF TO WATCH MEAN GURLS. HHAHA.

2007-06-13T07:04:00.000+08:00

so much for tolerating grace teo.
you shud haf just let everything go.
just listen and shut ur trap.
cause arguing and showing ur black face dont do you any guud.
accept the fact, the reality placed just in front of you.
accept that you dont have the same position in her heart as them.
they cud do evrything and please her, but u cudnt.
u will hafta go the extra mile to please her.
but what can i benefit from pleasing her?
no words of thanks. she just took it for granted.

yes. i shudnt expect anything in return, cause expecting just make me fall even harder.

sometimes, i get so emo and it irritates me greatly.
cause evrytime i thot i was able to take evrything in my stride, things happened.
and i was at loss once again.
i thot i cud accept evrything that is slapped right into mi face.
i guess i am not that strong yet.
or shud i sae, i ain't not numb to these overpowering emotions yet?

thankew (: for always being there when things like this happened.

2007-06-12T08:45:00.000+08:00

its that feeling in her. a mixture of bittersweetness, anguish, sorrow and guilt.
and when this feeling comes by, it made her lose her stand.
it made her lose the ability to smile, the ability to joke, the ability to think properly.

went for dance yesterday.
i wana play with them! APRIL BABIES :D
it was so so fun.
guess memories just cun satisfy me :(
shall drop by again on wed if mi mum allows.

yeaap. wenta eat at some korean restaurant with mi family on sunday!
its located at some ulu palce at pasir panjang. YESS centre.
near haw par villa. yeap.
theres like a dozen of small dishes. HAHA.
and its free. onli the bbq meat costs.
and its quite ex i guess. ahhaha.
but its NICEEE. and i especially lurve the rice. SOFT. lol.

DELICIOUS (:
AND AND.

GUESS WHAT IS THIS. GUESS! :D

and i cooked PASTA on FRIDAY FOR MYSELF. and its nice okaye!
shall cook for u pple someday! lol.

BLACK PEPPER WITH PRAWN, CRABSTICKS, HOTDOG, FISHCAKE. HAHHAHA.

and heres what i gave to mi beloved LAOPO. HAHHA. she was touched eh!
of course, this present wont even exist if theres no CINDY. hahah.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, MY NEW LOVE PEOPLE. HEHHEH.
I SWEAR HES THE CUTEST BOY ON EARTH. AWWW (:
many many loves.

2007-06-09T17:16:00.000+08:00

i KOPED this from shana's blog. HHAHHA.

1. meiting!
2. cindy!
3. ziqin!
4. shana!
5. yujie!
6. melinda!
7. jiajian!
8. rebecca!
9. peiying!
10. cheeyew!
11. justine!
12. junyang!
13. kenneth!

1.how did u meet 2 ? (cindy)
- NANHUA.

2. what would u do if u NEVER meet 6 ? (melinda)
- HAHHA. i wud think that im the skinniest gurl in the world. :pp

3. what would u do if 2 and 9 dated ? (cindy & peiying)
- they are married for goodness sake.

4. did u ever like 8 ? (yanyan)
- OH YES.

5. would 1 and 5 be a good couple ? (meiting & yujie)
- i guess so. but I will be HEARTBROKEN.

6. is no 11 gay/lesbian ? (justine)
- NOPE. if she is a les, all the guys on earth can cry pls. lol.

7. would u tell secrets to 5 ? (yujie)
- secrets? i dun haf much. HHAHA. but i will tell her ALOT of stuffs. ha.

8. what is your first memory with 2 ? (cindy)
- she was standing at the railing outside school canteen with vannessa. and it was then she told me they were cousins. this happened during sec1. 3rd day of school i guess! [:

9. do u know any of 1 family ? (meiting)
- her MAMA :D

10. what's 10's fav colour ? (cheeyew)
- orange! HAHHA. i saw it from shana's tagboard. YAYE!

11. what would u do if 9 confessed he/she liked u ? (peiying)
- OF COURSE I WUD ACCEPT HER LOVE <3

12. what language does 3 speak ? (ziqin)
- fluent english!

13. who is 13 going out with ? (kenneth)
- no ideaa.

14. what grade is 12 in ? (junyang)
- like same as me? sec4!

15. when did u last seen 7 ? (jiajian)
- LAST WEEK. HAHAHH. no. i dun stalk him -.-

16. what is 5 fav band ? (yujie)
- DUNO EH.

17. would u date 3 ? (ziqin)
- narh. HAHAH. she wudnt want me. pfft.

18. is 1 hot ? (meiting)
- absolutely NO. shes cool. shes GUAN YIN eh, thousands of fans. hot what hot?

19. is 12 single ? (junyang)
- ZU XI ARH. i guess so.

20. would u wanna be in a serious r/ship with 8 ? (rebecca)
- ERM. i have no objection if its serious friendship!

21. where does 10 go to sch ? (cheeyew)
- clementi?

22. what 4 best physical feature ? (shana)
- THE curly hair :D

23. Are no 7 & 8 best frens ? (jiajian & rebecca)
- they dun even know each other lurhs! HAHAH.

24. is 8 a gal or boi ? (rebecca)
- gurl of course!

25. who is 5 in love with ? (yujie)
- erm. SHOW. LUO ZHI XIANG!

26. what is your last memory with 7 ? (jiajian)
- i saw him walking down the pavement near mi hse?

27. have u ever hooked out with 4 ? (shana)
- HOOKED? use fishing rod or what?

28. what is de funniest memory of 8 ? (rebecca)
- ALOT EH! shall not xiasway her here yarh!

29. what is ur r/ship with 6 ? (melinda)
- KEESIAO PARTNERS! ^^

30. how old is 13 ? (kenneth)
- sixteen.

31. how close r u with 1 ? (meiting)
- husband and wife that is.

32 .would u slp with 12 ? (junyang)
- ?!

33. what is ur fav memory with 11 ? (justine)
- gosh. i haf bad memories. recent ones! FLAG DAY! ehhehe.

34. who's 10 best fren ? (cheeyew)
- no ideaa eh! who arh?

35. what your fav things abt 2 ? (cindy)
- she LISTENS, ENCOURAGES, GO CRAZY WITH ME, and she loves me alot alot. :D

2007-06-08T09:18:00.000+08:00

im having really really weird dreams lately.
and they are freaking mi out. ohwells.
been sleeping too much. im sleeping even though im not tired.
thats why i can dream so much.
HAHHA. LOGIC OKAYE.

DREAM NUMBER ONE.
i dreamt that i cud actually SEE ghost.
like wth. and i can SEE this ghost wearing sailormoon outfit.
horrible. i dint feel the fear eh?

DREAM NUMBER TWO.
i dreamt that i had a terrible quarrel with mi dad.
and we are crying like maddies in a coffeeshop. HA.
cuz he was late in sending mi to tuition. and I WAS ANGRY.
so yeah. screamings.
i bet u i did sleep talk!
so anw. im taking tis as a bad premonition.
it happened before u see.
:/

DREAM NUMBER THREE.
i dreamt that i haf a really really rich cousin who is older than me.
yeap. like those working pple alr!
then we were on a holiday.
the whole family. to some classic european place.
then mi mum was warning mi not to falll in lurve with this cousin since im so $.$ money-faced that is.
HAHAHA. but i tink i did fell in luurve! AWWW (:

OKAAYE. grace is craaaazy.
fancy falling in lurve with some guy in her dreams. LOL.
did i mention he looks like some korean actor?!
WHAHAH. so delightful if i rly haf such a cousin.

AND PEOPLE. no worries. im over it.
it as in all those stuffs that haf been bothering me for the past few weeks.
now im jumping arnd. pigging as usual.
HAHHA. im entertaining evryone who sees me. -.-
WHEEEEEEE.

2007-06-07T09:36:00.000+08:00

007 DETECTIVE COMPANY OPENING ON 07/07/07.
CINDY & GRACE :DD

GWEE'S MUM is like super nice!
she sent me home.
u know how far izit! hahahah
THANKEW :D

OKAYE. im seriously bored and wenta edit the pics.
this is to make cindy looks prettier!
if not she wud want her pics down.
HAHHAHA.

i havent start studying. shucks =x

joy is luurve. [:

2007-06-05T09:45:00.000+08:00

all or nothing by westlife (:
the song is not bad.

HAPIE BURFDAY TO MY DEAREST PHOON AND IVYSOH! :DD and WENHUI!
LURVE U GUYS TO BITS.
and i thank fate and dance for bringing nice people like them into mi mundane life :D
enjoy YOUR day okaye!

SARAH came to tis world on the day before yesterday!
luuurves. shes so uber cute that mi cousin's doctor took a pic of her when she was born!
AWWW (: i cun wait to see her lurhs!

i was sitting on the bus todae.
and saw a car plate with "SGT"
and i was happily thinking of SMART GRACE TEO :pp
then a car zoomed past, with the car plate no. "1314".
then i was thinking if my future husband cud buy a car with "LGT1314"
LURVE GRACE TEO 1314!
WHAHAHHA.

OKAYEEE RANDOM. 0.o
im still slacking like mad.
i need to get cracking! HHAHA.
wake up grace teo!

and thankew gwee melhoe and the rest who were helping me ytdy!
ur help is greatly appreciated! :D

FANTASTIC FOUR looks nice!
JESSICA ALBA! ahhaha. rawks.

till here! (:

2007-06-02T15:44:00.000+08:00

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2007-06-02T14:57:00.000+08:00

GREAT! ive slimmed down by 1kg. ><
not that i went for dieting, or diligently go exercising, or dance craazily.
was horribly SICK.
URGH.
and mi great mum gave me 4 tablets instead of 2 and got me camping in the toilet for the past few days.
LOL.
ive never felt so bad before. being ill is jsut the worse thing that cud happen.

AND. i lost all the motivation to study.
damn.

i remembered ive MANY THINGS to blog about!
NOW I FORGOT :/

OHYES. flag day on wednesday.
was BAD.
" i dont believe alr. ... because of nkf."
" why ur school ask students to come out and do this kinda donation. if u not student then maybe i will donate"
and many many more.
and all those smirks.
PLEASE. NKF IS NOT THE ONLI ASSOCIATION THAT NEEDS HELP.
BECAUSE OF ONE PERSON WHO DID WRONG,
DOESNT MEAN EVRY ORGANISATIONS HAF TO BE CONDEMNED AS WELL.
they need our help, just a few cents wont turn u into a beggar and make u cry on the streets.
kinda upset. thats how GREAT some singaporeans are.

of course theres NICE PEOPLE out there too.
"girl, come! children society arh! (slots 10bucks into the pocket)"
"girl eat lunch alr nots? want me to buy rice for u?"
" NAN HUA ARH! im an ex-student eh! (blabbers abt how nh was in the past... ...)"
"hey, (slot mi 10 cents) where u buy the pkt of sugarcane ah?" PENGS*

HAHAHAH. comical right!
evrytime i go out for flag day, i will learn smth.
WHOOOTS. :D
and YES. i ALMOST MET HUIHUI! gosh.
u know how close was THAT!
i dun care. we haf gota meet up! [:

yeah. kinda lying arnd these few days.
i dont even haf th energy to walk arnd. horrible.
anw, THANKS GWEE! :D

till here. shall go sleep more!

why must u tell me all these now? that u are struggling, that u cannot seem to let go, that u owaes have the urge to keep me with u. hearing what uve done to urself because of all these is tearing me apart. please. find someone that will lurve u better, that will not hurt u so much, that will stay with u, that will spend as much time with u. because i cudnt do all these. thats why i chose to leave.

forgive me.

2007-05-29T19:10:00.000+08:00

PHOTOS!

i didnt ask them if i can post it up here.
but i guess they will be happy if i do so.
so if u are not, just tell me (:
many many loves.
28 may UCC!!!

see how fierce our LAOSHI looks. must be punishing that naughty ONG. hahaha.

. meimei, jeanette, SMIRKY ong.

HAHHA. they gif me the impression of "BEST BUDDIES FOREVER!"

TENG and JEANETTE. one of the prettiest photos.

group HUG! ghostly xinjie! HAHAH.

SMOOCHES! yanyan third party?! GASPS-

LOVES <3
lihuan wenxuan jeanette! anth pretty picture!

YINGHUI & PHOOON! :DD

OCTOPY! ehehhe. phoon trying hard to be serious. YEPP. LOL.

jeanette looks super cute! :D ong looks ahem. FARNIE AS EVER!

MEEEEE and LIHUAN. [:

NOTICE. phoon smiled the widest with me. IM PRETTY UGLY HUH! HAHA.

OKAYE. if u realised, its all cultural pple's photo.
BECAUSE. mi phone was in mi bag.
and its in their room. and its diff level.
so i was lazy and din get it.
ahhaha. and i dun like to take pics before perf. yeah lo.
AHHAH. i hope the dont mind!
OKAYE. last but not least, my SPASTIC ONG ZILIAN PICS!

BYE UCC. GREAT MEMORIES THERE. SYF, and 2 CULTURAL POTS. RELUCTANCE. I DINT WANT THE NIGHT TO END. I GUESS ALL THE SEC4S FELT THAT WAY TOO.
ALTHOUGH THERE WAS SOME MISTAKES, BUT I GUESS, THE NIGHT WAS BEAUTIFUL.
WITH ALL OF US TOGETHER.

2007-05-29T10:21:00.000+08:00

AHHH. cindy will scream if she hears tis blog song. EHEHHE.
super nice lurhs.
and i missed the last episode of mars vs venus.
BLAH :(
i thot it was one of the best shows recently. yupp.

shall update bout cultural pot next time.
and update the photos taken by ong and the others.
sur eu will haf a great laugh.
super retarded.

sad. sec4s din get to take pics.
our last night. last dance.
it doesnt feel like being a sec4 leaving.
four years seemed to haf gone so fast.
and nhds has been part of my life for such a long time.
my motivation, my joy, my love.
now that its gone and i fear i wont get to dance with all tis great people and experience the same feeling again.
i found true friends, true laughters, true tears and i know dancers are always there for me through thick and thin.
holding on tgt no matter what happens.

but dont worry my soul and heart will be with you guys for as long as i live.
[:

2007-05-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

have u ever woken up one day,
feeling very very happie,
having the urge to lift a smile to everyone,
even the people on the bus.

YES. THATS WHAT I FELT TODAE.
:DD
IT HAS BEEN AGES SINCE I FELT SO WONDERFUL.

2007-05-22T20:27:00.000+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

im just so damning pissed. owells.
we are letting it all out in msn.
i cun REN alr! URGH.

totalli spoilt mi day. damn.
was playing netball for 1 plus hours.
and i was so tired. almost died there.
lucky it was postponed. if not i will be out of breath even before the game starts.
ahhah.

was bridging todae oso! mi and moqi won quite a few.
gosh. im addicted again.

till here. i haf no mood to blog.
someday.

OH FUCK YOU. u think u are that great! how cud u! and why do we haf to tolerate such treatment when we are just helping dance?! PLEASE. we are the ones doing the most but still got condemned as useless! might as well not do any single freakign thing. go with ur way and see how things i go. im sure many many things will go wrong. can u control all the dancers in the first placE?! if u know u cannot sacrifice as much, and when u know tchr ic for dance is very demanding, why do u still accept it! why must some misunderstanding btwn tchrs lead to us being all disappointed and deprived of an important international competition! u knwo how much it meant to us! why must u hurt us with ur sarcastic remarks and words when all of us are just fighting and working hard for dance? it is not as if we are doing harm to dance! and we did not want to tell u what to do! we jsut wana tell u what we planned and hope u will help us. but u are not even willing to sarcrifice soem of ur time!

RAWR. GO AWAY. I HAVE NO WISH TO SEE YOU TMR.

2007-05-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

E65! WHOOTS. i got it at a fantastic price.
i was so HAPPPIIIEEE (:
mi dadddy is niccee. vv shuang guai! ^^

saturday. i JOLLY FORGOT WHAT I DID.
jus tthat i got pangseh-ed by mi mum. HORRIBLE.
i was in such a shopping mood. ><

sunday was window shopping with ong and phoon!
LOL. VIVO.
i saw a lecoq bag! DANG! and i can imagine miself carrying it.
but its over mi budget.
so yeah. IMAGINATION WILL DO. [:
i promise to take them to bugis street someday and buy like siaooo.
but they must be able to tolerate the crowd.
crowd gives me the thrill sometimes. whahah.

got back most of the papers.
aint that bad i guess. mi english improved! and im happpiiee.
emaths was kinda disappointment but it was tough yeah?

HAHHA. evryones so excited bout DSA.
but ahaha. mi dance skill aint guud at all.
so yeaah. shall study hard for Os!
im telling miself again and again..
NO SLACKING DURING JUNE.
its time to MUG AND MUG AND MUG.
cuz if i waste mi june away, i tink i will nvr forgive miself.
YEAAPPP CHIONG!!!! [:

todae was BRIDGE DAY!
WE PLAYED LIKE MAD.
LAST PERIOD WAS LUCKY PERIOD FOR ME.
hahaha. leihoi liya kjoined us. and it was super farnie.
spread the wisdom of bridge! LOL.

watched THE GUARDIAN too.
gosh. i was crying though i know the ending alr.
it was so sad when randall let go.
HE SAID HE NEVER LET GO. rawr.
great. i know i was feeling emo at that time too.
have been like tis for a few days.
but yeah. guess things will be better when DANCE STARTS.

whooots. jia en sent me smth sweet today! made mi smile so dumbly into mi fone lurhs! [:

interclass netball tmr. HAHHA.
shall end here. (:

im trying so hard to smile without you. cause ive know ive to learn. even if its to smile through mi tears. has been hearing things about you, stop broooding okaye. im not worth your love. i know u wud haf chose to wait. but i cant kip u by my side. and for the very last time, sorry my love.

2007-05-19T08:38:00.000+08:00

WHOOOTS

been quite since i used black blogskins.
hahah. tis blogskin was chosen by melindaaa hoe.
im gona play with colours!
C O L O U R F U L

wahhah. im craazzy. hhaha.
june holidays in a week's time! intensive studying :D
not that im looking forward.
just that june gives me the comfort that i stll haf soemtime before prelims and all those.
kinda grateful for it?

yeap. napfa ytdy! u shud see the six of us.'CHIONG LIKE MAD. :DD
keesiao and kiasu. whahah.
cause we wana go home sweet home earlier you see.
ahhah. so we just went hopping anrd before evryone else. lol.
and shuttle run! i ran for jus the timing is so much faster than mine!
whoots im proud of it. ahahh.
"YOU MADE MY DAY" -JUSTINE KOH.
mi muscles aint achin as much as past years. which was GREAT. [:

then met up with phoon and we headed central for bubble tea and mac.
whaha. we just sat there and talk talk talk.
being nice as ever, i pei her wait for her mama.
lol. so we started reading.
she started reading mi chinese book and me for one more day.
hahaa. guess thats what i meant friends that know u best.
even if its just reading books or just sitting arnd,
its guud to haf someone with u to while away time.
hhaha. and always someone talking and talking non-stop to entertain me
or listening and encouraging when i was pissed off or down.
and of course, tolerating mi craaazzy days.
ahaha. msut be grinnning to urself now. dumb dumb x)

then phoon accompanied me to bus stop and met ong running to catch the 185 bus.
super farniee. LOL.
and ONG IS LIKE PRO! her napfa was damn guud.

YEAH! DANCE STARTING NEXT WEEK! [:
IM SO LOOKING FORWARD!
BEEN SO ONG SINCE I DANCED.
ALL MI MUSCLES ARE LIKE SO FRIGGING TENSE.
or izit called tense? wadever.
lol. just that i will be so damn excited bout cultural pot.
i think i will be so exhilarated that day that i faint.
LOL. craaazy.

for one more day was a nice book.
i finished reading by a few hours.
but i din cry. wahah.
aaron's tissue still acts as mi bookmark.
gosh. am i that cold too?
but i did felt the urge to cry in some parts.
but narh, the tears din came out. HAHAHA.
but the book reminds me of dianelle steel's johnny angel.
that was worse. whole bucket of tears.
gosh.

OKAYE. I SHALL GO WATCH YOU TUBE NOW. HAHA.
im hooked on antm again. HAHAHA.

im so not over it. and its hurting me like mad now. and i need desperately to cry and for soemone to comfort. but i couldnt bring myself to speak of this to anyone cause it just sent me back to hell. youve changed and i couldnt keep you with me forever. i know you cant wait and you shud be gone. the last thing you could do for me is to let me go.

2007-05-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

记得

谁还记得　是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话　是我们以后的伤口
过了太久　没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　说要一起走到最后
我们都累了　却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑　怎么说　怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么　也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人　等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中　看见了不同的天空
走的太远　终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我　要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得　是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话　是我们以后的伤口
过了太久　没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手　说要一起走到最后

this song got me thinking about loads and loads of stuffs.
i dont know if its guud or bad.
memories came flooding into mi mind and tears welling up mi eyes.
but i refused to let it roll.
cause ive realised ive let it go.
after so much struggles, so much thoughts, so much unbearable pain,
i guess we haf come to this crossroad.
perhaps it was wrong of me to decide which way u shud take and which way shud i.
but i believe that nth lasts forever.
and i think ive cherished the times which were once ours.
ive been cherishing since the very first moment.
and the memories of all the nights out, the chats, the msging, the morning walks and many more belong to us. just me and you. at least memories last forever.

note: no explanation pls.

OHYAH. ive a new blogskin. jsut that blogger experiencing some dumb problem.
blogskin chose by melhoe. gota trust ehr taste yarh?
hahaha. next time (:

2007-05-13T15:34:00.000+08:00

BOOOO. blogger having such sarky template.
make me lost interest in blogging. RAWR.
shall change to livejournal after mids.
WHICH IS 3DAYS AWAY ONLYYY. :DD

though the majors are gone, guess paper 1 are not gona be easy.
and SPA. i hope i wun stone there for the whole time thinking how to start.
LOL. if not i wud just cook up some experiment. HAHHA.
and yeah. jlim said we nid to wear safety goggles whiel doing skill 3. -.-

HAHAH. short entry. since i spent yesterday out enjoying mi life. TREMENDOUSLY.
ive no ideaa. how we spent 4 hours in starbucks and TALK.
a whole whole lot. hahaha. i kept grumbling i hafta get home study.
and this stuupid person used his oh-so-impt exams to threaten me.
OWELLS. hahah. so thats how i spent mi day. bad bad bad.
and quite coincidentally, mi fanily wanted to haf dinner at novena.
they reached so EARLY and yeah, too bad, we bumped into them.
and so on. blah blah blah. tons of explanation. rawr.

ookaye. mids were a torture.
guess i haf to accept that im gona fail quite a few.
horrible right. ive gota convince mi mum too.
jsut dun let mi flunk english.
im afraid i will break down. i dun wana disappoint emily.
im kinda freaked. hahah.

ive loads to look forward to after mids.
and i promise to start studying after the trip to genting. YES.
no more cramming! hahah.
CULTURAL POT!
ohman. i guess it meant a whole great deal to us, sec4s.
i tink as i comes nearer we will be overwhelmed with excitement.
i CUN WAIT TO DANCE. [:

but its kinda saddening to get to know how SOME pple felt.
it seems that the gap is too big.
and we might never be as close.
but, but.
havent we done enough?
havent we tried hard to make evrything right?
whats the reason behind all these?
lets not hope it is not smth childish.